Tuesday, November 13, 2007
♥ 12:05 AM
Last week during cg, Charmaine was preaching and one of the sermon point was having security and knowing who you are in the Lord. Next she mention, she won't because asked Wen Kai, Serena, Valerie and myself to lead certain things in cg and than having people ask wow they are doing a good job and than feel insecure about it. And she said this in fact I think I learnt something from them because they did a good job. I must say I thought I did not do quite well but for Charmaine to say this on Sat was really a compliment. Really thank God for the chance!Last week was the last time I get to serve with my team due to some of them going over to Jurong West. Had a long weekend services with Rev Ulf. Beside Emerge this could be the longest service I had to serve. Well thought that I did not do a good job. Been wanting to eliminate errors. But commit 2 similar error. Although my IC say is miscom between me and the tv crew but I still feel is my fault if i could be more zai be more firm with my decision I would not have made that error by flashing Pst Ulf title bar at the wrong time. Learnt a lesson got to see the situation before asking the tv crew to give me a mid-shot of pst. Sunday, pst was introducing his new book and I was asked to flash the slide that intro his new book. Instead of that I was not sharp and observant did not notice that the source was not change and up came the verse. I think that error cause my IC some trouble. As I was walking home after work I realise that the year is coming to an end and in a flash is going to be 1 year for me in this ministry. I thought that I have learnt and improve along the months but last weekend episode tells another story. Just got to learn and improve. I don't wanna commit the same mistake over and over. Wanna eliminate all this errors and give a good show. Well the next time I serve will be the last week of Nov i guess probably with some changes but I will still look forward and conquer and eliminate all errors.Today my big brother finally reached back home. Was hoping he buy something home but all he got was choc, sweets, chips for me. Well better than nothing. I was thinking now that he is back i need not reach home before 10pm. But than this thought enter my mind..is because I made a decision to reach home everyday before 10pm thats why my relationship with my parents got better and is the best that I can remember! So no matter what until I enter NS i will continue to be back by 10pm. The first thing when my bro reached home, my mom told me to carry his stuffs to his room because his australia training cause his foot to be swollen and is bleeding whole foot lan. Now they are at the hospital. Shall wait for them to come home before I go to bed.Well yesterday, accompany my mom to the supermarket after dinner. Actually this is the first time I see my dad tag along. Partly also because of me as I felt that waste of time after dinner at fish & co than go hm take the other car out. So my dad in a sense reluctant say ok to it. Guess he needed to rush back to do his work. Rarely will I join my family on a Sunday. Yesterday heard my mom say very boring on sunday when all 3 of us not at home. Thank God i made the decision to go home after a short fellowship with Charmaine and the cg at tamp. If not no one help her with the groceries and I would not get to eat fish & co. I think for my parents also quite sian. 3 sons but than like no children like that. 2 went to army the other one so active in church. I think I must start sparing more thoughts for them. Be back early on Sunday.My computer have been with me I think 9 years and already very terminally ill. I decide to ask my dad can I change. Arise and Build already started. Alone I cannot do it. Wah he agree to change my com and my request was instead of a monitor I want a tv. I always wanted a tv in my room. I have everything I could ask for in my room except a tv. Really thank God for this huge blessing. Probably get it done by Nov. God never fail to answer my desires.Still pondering to give or not to give. Well God tell me shld I and is it wise.Labels: blessing, chorus board, family
Thursday, November 01, 2007
♥ 10:16 PM
Last week, my member called me at 2 plus. Once in a while will receive calls at this time. Not angry or anything. Rather I feel glad that they actually turn to me and actually thought of me and share with me their problems. Can't say that I can give great advice or anything but one thing I can guarantee is no matter what time is it no matter how tired I am I wil still lend my ears to whoever needs it. Following day was service and need to go queue up but I think is all worthwhile able to help out someone.Will move on from my current job at the end of the month. Probably will take a month break before I look for another job. Finally told my auntie about it. Had fear telling her in a sense I feel will like dui bu qi her like that. But yesterday my mom no need to work, while taking a walk with her to Secret Recipe spoke to her about this issue, she encouraged me to call her and tell her when we reach home. Did just that. Glad that I have one less issue to worry about. The last 1 month I have been thinking of giving an amount from my salary. On Tuesday night I finally gave slightly more than a tenth of my salary to my mom. Must admit it was tough to part with the money but had this thinking that if every month I can give a tenth to God howcome I cannot give a tenth to my parents, the hands that fed me for 20 years. I must say is not much and probably my parents don't really need it also. However all these years I wanted my parents to get save but was unsuccessful.And it happen that there is this primary 6 boy who is my team decide to came to cg without his brother tagging along. And I really put in my best to try to make him feel comfortable. Thank God for my CGMs as well they help to make him feel welcome. He originally told me that he don't want to come for cg until next year when he is settle in his new sec school. But because we took the extra step and therefore he became open towards us and make it easier to integrate him. All these years my parents have been great towards me and my brothers. Even when I have no money in my bank my dad will always transfer money to me. But this time round I have decided to do something take the extra step and to honor my parents. I think my mom was touched, can't say much about my dad because my mom took the money and joke about it saying that he is rich enough no need the money. That explain why she decide to buy secret recipe cheese cake because of my decision to contribute.Though it means lesser money to spend and with building fund coming this weekend, still believe that God will still bless me and make sure that I am not in lack financially. At least one thing I can say is I am nearing one of my goal. So looking forward to building fund. Remembered I told Charmaine that each year I want to see myself giving more than the previous year and indeed I am able to. As compared to previous years, this year building fund mean even more to me because this time round I am giving through my own pocket. To put it more correctly the last 3 or 4 times that I gave to the building fund it was from the pocket money that I receive from my parents. In a sense felt like is not me who give buy my parents who give but this time round I am no longer on their payroll and I am giving through my own salary. Actually, all these years i may not have experience wow blessing but God have bless me in other areas that I was harboring in my heart. This year esp my relationship with my parents and brothers have gone up to another level. Last time when we were young we really gave our parents a tough time but I have seen how good God is. My big bro at Australia now and he will think of us and he called just now to ask me what I want he see whether he can buy for me anot. My twin bro at tekong and I am the only one left and the last 2 months I have grown even closer to my parents which I am loving every moment of it. Gonna be a busy week, finish calling my members, still got ministry members to call. May have to organise the ministry outing which will on next week. Next week have to serve and must remind myself to manage my time properly if not I will be rushing for time again.Time to go work on my prayer meeting message. Need to spend some time on it. Just realise that need to msg Charmaine today to inform her about the message I am going to share but it keep on slipping off my mind. Must start to buck up. Share a good word esp when this week is build fund.Labels: building fund, family, work
