decide to end my work so that i can stay home to take care of my mom. all these years don't really think i contributed much. now perhap is a chance to do something. in order to keep the income coming in decide to here and there work for my dad again.

was asked to serve for drama during mother's day which would require me to serve at jw and expo and also attend a few rehearsal. was having a tough time trying to decide. talked to van, val, ch and pam. finally after weighing down everything decide that i will find it a bit tough to commit to the drama. really thank God for understanding caring leader.

was surfing the net. when i came across this jdrama called Proposal Daisakusen. apparently it snap up the best drama award for last year. is a nice show quite hook to it now since there are no heroes avail.


these past few days had been a hectic one for me. very tiring. have been devoting a considerable amt of time to the hospital.

thursday had a sleepless night while my parents caught a few hour of rest before we head down to mount elizabeth for my mom's op. thank God that my whole family can be there think my bro will only start his confinement this coming week.

spend a few hours at the hospi waiting for her to come out from the op theatre. when we visited her at her ward she was super weak not feeling very well. spend probably 30 mins there before me and my dad went home to let her rest and also for us to catch some winks.

went back in the evening to visit her. was driving my dad and we had a conversation. the last couple of years was quite tough for me because my dad was strict with me in the area of finance. back then i was like angry but looking back i am totally independent and no longer need my dad to finance me anything so i don think is a bad thing aft all.

few years ago when me and my bros were learning how to drive he told us that he will get us a car so we can share. but it did not came to pass when we got our licence. well while we were on the road he told me something that "shock" me. to ppl who do not know my dad will think he is stingy but to me i feel he is saver.

he was sharing with me he is not stingy or anything in fact he has no problem buying us car or anything. even if it mean getting 3 cars for my brothers and myself. but the only thing is that why he did not want to is because at the end of the day when we receive the road tax we are just going to throw it to him and have him settle it for us.

well seriously i did not think of asking him to get a car for me. was hoping by 25 i will be financially sound and able to afford my own car. was jus sharing with shang i was hoping to be a millionaire by 25 but talking to my dad it seems far fetch so now i zero it down to 100k. one zero less.

he made me realise one thing very impt. my mom's hospi bill will run up to in btw 8k to 10k. and he said that when u are struck down by illness, ur 10k will be immediately wipe out. i am 21 and may have start learning to save late but is ok. i have 7 more years to equal my dad feat to save his first million.

friday was kindda bad cos my mom was seriously not feeling very well aft the op. did not spend much time with her. left early with my dad so she can really catch more rest.

saturday decided to go for svc after cg. svc ended unexpectedly late. was thinking will the hospi allow me to visit my mom anot aft 8. drove like mad trying to beat the traffic to reach there in time. again she did not have much jing shen. accompany her for abt 15 - 20 mins before i decide to leave so she can slp early.

wasn't feeling too well probably because of the lack of slp and too much worrying. over the last couple of weeks i think i did not spend much time with my gd friends. decide to go home straight aft svc. i guess probably my mom saw it that i rather come back for lunch and dinner that we had more family meals together.

so yesterday went to join ch, dan, fabian, van and val at bedok mcdonald. at first i was quite listless very tired. but they got me to join in with bluff, heart attack which got me to lighten up. though it was a short meet up but i enjoy it.

went over to visit my mom again. this time round we were there longer. she was feeling much better but can see still not say very well. but good thing is she will discharge tmrw at 11 plus. will go down with my dad. is it one year plus or 2 years ago he had an op on his leg also. kindda know that his legs are kindda his weak spot. decide to take leave and just be there.

be going in army real soon. i really really wanna go oversea. was actually thinking of going to phuket or krabi. a short relaxing hol. i think will be going last week of may or 1st week of june. unless someone decide to go like middle may. got to start planning for it if not is jus gonna evaporate again.

on monday night my bro came home to tell me that he might get charge and go DB for hitting a taxi while driving. is like one after another.

been fasting everyday and praying alot this whole week for a quite some things. one of it was hoping that God will do something. going to DB means leaving a record behind. well God is good. wed my bro told me because of his recruit status they cannot charge him for DB but rather he will have to stay in camp for like 10 days without coming out.

tmrw will be my mom's op. also dunno will my bro be back home today or will he start his confinement today. all of us will be going down to accompany my mom.

had dinner with her and my bro yest at east coast. she was saying how her fear grip her and made her unable to go to sleep. all i can do is pray that after the op the wound will not hurt much and everything will be good.

helped her with some of the work till 1am before i went to bed. will be the only person home when my bro start his confinement in camp and till my big bro come back on the 6th of may.

been thinking wad to do for her on mother's day. so far did not really do much. was thinking of bringing her go makan but don think she can also until she fully recover. well probably will b a belated one then.

hectic weekend. most prob will jus drive down for sat svc and spend sunday with her at the hospi.

so amaze by my cgm this young boy bryan who is just 13 years old. his passion, his hunger quietly inspire me to do more. been praying with him over the phone for 2 days. presence of God was strong.

he is really a sweet boy. after dinner with char he went home did a prayer list send it to me and we start praying. i must say there were element of fear since this week my mom will be going for operation.

but like i say presence of God was strong. half way while we were praying God asked me to turn to this verse Psalm 6:9. close to 40 mins on the phone with him had not gone wasted. just like this verse say the Lord will receive my prayer.

it did not just help to calm my fear knowing that God will make sure everything turns out smoothly but also a testament that God is a God who hears and answer our prayer. is an encouragement to know that when both of us stand together tarry together God will be in the midst of us listening to our cries.

this young boy really inspire me alot. from one who rejected me to come regularly for cg meeting to one who is passionate for cg, for his ministry and also the people that around his life. in him truely i see Jesus.

dunno wad is wrong with this whole week. been down with fever. been staying home bound the last few days. got to go out stretch the limbs. feel so stiff jus staying at home.

receive my enlistment letter. thank God at least i don need to go in in may. going in on the 13 june. another month plus before i surrender my freedom. quite nonchalent to the whole thing. at least the bright side is i can finish this whole NS thing fast. no need to worry when will i be going in. june 12 2010 so looking forward to it where i can resume my norm civilian life.

was looking forward to being 21 because i know that government will give money. so on tuesday when chai huat was asking me how much did i receive i was like hmm..no letter that address to me. only yesterday then found out my mom took the letter and help us settled it. got a paltry sum of 150. but still is money better then nth. thot i really won't receive a single cent.

since i am losing my key of freedom..mus start to plan maybe go for a short get away. really need one probably after my mom op or something.



whole of sunday quite pack. after serving went to give bible study, meet up with cg at airport for a short fellowship before heading down to orchard to get all the presents and cake for char surprise birthday celeb.

bought a bebe top, a handbag, taka vouchers and also a ice cream cake from swensen before heading for home. so both val and myself we drove down to char's place and start planning how best to surprise her.

came out with many plans..while we were waiting at the 2nd level, the girls were supposed to talk to char abt something serious so can con her down. until the last min everything was ok until val say she dunno wad to talk to char abt so we got her to quickly come up to the 2nd floor.

when char was at the void deck, we took the lift from 2nd floor down. when the door open we sang her a birthday song. she was shocked to see us. and according to her we made her day because the last 2 years wasn't a very good years for her and she was also wondering how she is going to spend her birthday.

glad she like the gifts. had a tough time thinking what to buy for her since her "farewell" gifts we bought her vouchers. thank God for van and glenn. if not will have a huge headache selecting gifts for her.

recently had some problems that is weighing me down. this whole month so far have not started right for me yet. this morning before i head to work was talking to my big bro that my mom is moving her op date to the 25th this month.

my big bro will be going to taiwan on wed. will be going home early for the next few weeks. thank God able to end work at the end of apr since no one will be at home. after my mom recover probably will look for another job or go for a short hol.

was thinking of starting my investment portfolio now. start from young and hopefully grow the portfolio. talked to my dad abt it. right now i see no point in leaving my money in the bank since the interest rate is so little. might as well invest it, wait and see. hopefully can earn more from there.

was checking my mail and char send me a link of this 6 year old boy breakdancing (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d26XQMMJxno).

thus this got me to start browsing youtube when i stumble upon this video. well i mus say this girl connie talbot (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Connie_Talbot) is super talented! this video is from this reality show "britian's got talent". a few weeks ago my bro wanted to let me listen to her song but was too tired to listen. today finally got a chance to sample her song.

he was so bowl over by her not just him but the audience were so captivated by this amazing girl. even the bookmaker made her co-favourite with the eventual winner paul potts. sadly my bro said her album did not sell well. but thing is her record company is not dropping her. hear her rendition of "somewhere over the rainbow" is nice. she manage to enter the final of the competition and this is her clip (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7Uhgm5Ox9Q&feature=related).

this is her compilation video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=86Pw4qFUjE4).

while browsing i stumble onto paul potts (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paul_Potts) video. he is the winner of the reality show. his video (testimony) is amazing. brother gabriel show us this video during our breakaway camp last year.

i was upstair in the media room, i can still remember i was very touched by paul potts video. he may not have the looks the confidence but he sure have the talent and also the courage to pursue his dream. look at this video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k08yxu57NA&feature=related) how he captivated the 2,000 audiences and the 3 judges during his audition. this is his semi-final video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDB9zwlXrB8&feature=related).

sitting in the judging panel is the ever hard to please simon cowell. and he was so wow by both connie talbot and paul potts.

just pursue you dream with all your heart. it just show that anything and yes all things are possible! dare to dream big and don't shackle your dream!

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pst tan preached a very very good msg on sunday. glad i was there to hear him! he mentioned that if you want to get somewhere in life you must start where you are! got to make a decision to start NOW! for me the part that really got me thinking and being serious is the part when pst talked abt savings.

as mentioned earlier i was out with val went to hongkong cafe near our hse there for a drink and we talked abt finance. was sharing with her what i shared with chai huat on sunday. time to get serious in the area of my finance.

it would be great to be a millionaire thru your own hands. God is good! me and my bros have good parents who knows how to save and make sure we will live in comfort. but i wanna know that actually i can also become a millionaire thru the power of saving and making wise decision on my finances.

i must say my dad inspire me quietly even though i don't say it to him. he is just an O level grad. he is a successful person. made his riches from sratch. saving here and there. and he is where he is right now because he is hardworking person and he know the power of saving. he told me once...he may not have the best qualification in terms of education but he is better off in terms of financial because he knows how to save.

don really have a habit to save one. although i don see myself as a spend thrift but i dunno why my money keep on depleting also haha. but decide from now on i wanna save. make it a habit to save.

was sharing with val that next month shall open another acc purely for saving purposes. not going to touch the money until i have $1,500 inside there. from there gonna take $1,000 out put into FD since the compound interest rates offer by the bank are so low it makes no sense letting my money sit in the bank. got to source for banks that gives good interest rates for every FD that i open with them. this will be my goal! hopefully by june i can open my first FD with my own money. although God knows how many acc or how many FDs my parents do up for me and my bros. wanna have the satisfaction to be able to do it on my own and not thru the help of my parents. Got to make it happen!

i was always interested in playing shares and learning how to speculate in this area. though the returns can be high but the risk is also there. wanted to invest a couple of years ago, my dad don encourage. and when he is ok with it i was broke. so now since i have money i wanna set aside a sum of money to invest in shares. always remember what my dad told me. he is not a risk taker and he understand that alot of ppl get their fingers badly burn because of shares. but he just wanna learn and if can make some money. ever since i know what is teletext as a kid i always see him watching some boring page on the tv with some stupid figures but i nv know what is it.

he told me that he won't put the family at risk because he wanna speculate in shares. say for example if he has a $500,000 he will only set aside $50,000 just to play. if he makes money good if he lose money because of shares it will just be that $50,000 and nth more. since interest rates are so low and letting my money sit in the bank and collect dust i might as well learn to spread my money wisely and invest on this and hopefully make some money.

was talking to char abt her new job last friday. she is currently working at jardine & smith. new term that i learn call "land banking". quite attracted to it. i liken it to en-bloc. was talking to my dad abt it and he say he is not interested in it. but i am quite interested in it. but i need to fork out like $20k which i am not able to. so if i can make some money through shares who knows i can ask char to help me invest $20k in a plot of land in england. u mus be thinking a plot of land in england where got so cheap. of cos i don get to own the land with 20k most likely i can only buy one standing spot of that land. but the returns is in pound. since the next olympic is held there and most likely the 2018 world cup will be there also. although no one knows when the developer will come in but since the banking world right now is so in a mess i might as well invest money in land. and i guess everybody know land is the only "stable" way to get money.

told char my plan on friday that i wanna be a cgl and also a leader in chorus board if God willing. don't want to be limit my mindset. was talking to gordon on sunday. kelvyn talked to me during easter abt whether i have the desire to rise up as a leader in chorus board. he was sharing with me he understand that i am going NS this year and maybe tough for me to rise up but he shared with me abt this guy called darren who is in NS but he is like the 2nd IC helping sihui to oversee the sunday svc team.

like i say i don wan to limit myself by telling myself or making excuses that jus because i am going NS alot of things cannot do. but rather i wanna trust in God that anything and everything is possible! i am already very bless to have a very good leader who see something in me and willing and patiently teaching me. as i was talking to gordon, i was telling him i hope to be able to be like darren and be able to help my ic more by june. whether anot it happen by june doesn't matter. impt thing is i set a goal and be focus and run towards it. well with God nth is impossible!

change is the only constant thing in life. you shape ur own future with every decisions you make. either you choose to lead change or change will lead you.

i like what van say..because in work i always like to disturb her with problems. she will always tell me don't give me more problems give me solutions solutions. well i say stop looking at ur problems but start giving solutions.

my dad told me this once..he is not good at studies. he understand that some ppl are not good with studies. but the worst thing is staying at home rot ur whole life away and do nth. he will always say go out there work learn something. he know his weakness but he too learn to overcome his own "problem".

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