realise that its been a week since i last update.

caught step up 2 after work with val and van on monday. in my point of view the movie is not so bad although i know many ppl out there beg to to differ. right now also no time and not many shows catch my eyes. probably can take a break from going the movie until the blockbusters are release.

thursday after the rehearsal at expo, went home rest a bit before i went to meet val, jas and van who were doing the door girft for the news friends who will be joining us. drove down to mcdonald at east coast where we ate and play bridge all the way till close to 6am before we left east coast mcdonald. so that day i practically did not catch any sleep just shut my eyes for 45 mins before i woke up to report.

this week, i don seem to have a weekend at all. was down at expo from thursday to sunday. was serving on the drama team for the first time. is really tough to be on this team. from what i know i am probably very bless other then the thursday rehearsal my other rehearsal which i had to attend was like 2 thursday ago at jurong west. compared with the christmas drama team heard that they need to attend like alot of rehearsal. very thankful that i only needed to attend a grand total of 2 rehearsal.

on thursday had a final rehearsal before the actual day on friday. did nth much that day. so can't really pen anything. on friday had some hiccups although pastor tan and pastor derek was impress. was telling pamela abt it. she was saying the compliment should last me through the services. told myself cannot let my head grow big even though pst think that is was good. personally i don't think is was gd told myself need to do better the next day. ended the day by meeting up with my cg and charmaine. head down to upp thomson for prata. another day of fellowship. although not many stayed back but you jus feel cosy and also the fellowship was great! really thankful to val because she came to pick us up although in the end i was the one driving. but still really appreciate it! don really mind doing the driving also. at the end of the day after sending everyone home and waiting for jas, i knock out. super tired and jas hmm took quite some time to prepare since she is staying over at val's hse.

sat i overslept and miss the reporting time. told myself must really do much better then the previous day. felt that sat was the best in term of performance. because i was very focus and my agenda was not to "foul out" but to give my best for the drama. truely enjoy myself on sat. aft the whole service went to hall 2 to go help out in the ticket booth. was holding double portfolio for that day. pretty much kept myself busy. aft we wrap up the whole ticket booth, was talking to rosa before i leave expo. she was asking me how was the whole drama. pretty much enjoy myself and because char been telling me this week why you like that, must have a good attitude in serving because i told her i was tired and i overslept today etc. was telling rosa, everything is good, treat the whole script like sermon like that. she say ya quite true jus that doing drama must be more sharp and focus. was thinking if i see the whole script as a huge thing i might become more fearful and prone to make more mistake. but if i see it as a sermon i would not be very fearful of the whole script since kelvyn let me do sermons a few time. and the exp was very valuable and it help to calm my nerve as well. seriously must repent need to adjust my attitude towards serving. ended the day by accompanying val to send char home because we were worried later val might not find her way home from bishan. but she pass next time i no need to be her road directory anymore haha.

also yesterday char intro me, val and jas to our new zs ming jin (dunno did i spell it correctly). wah char really sabo me sia haha. i was telling char last time everytime u mention abt ming jin's name i always thot that he was a lady. did not know is a guy. told her don't tell him i say this ah. she go tell him and yest he joked with me make the whole introduction time so tense for me haha. he is a nice zs i must say.

kelvyn and the chorus board ministry really took great care of us. we were told to take cab down to expo for service today. ok today performance was like o man kindda nt very happy with myself. feel that my standard drop for this svc. aft the first session went to meet char and told her abt it. she was telling me ya lor today wah bad complacent ah. before that i was telling her today breakfast very sumptuous. they catar mcdonald breakfast for us. and char was telling me wah give you good breakfast you still like that. went back for second svc all out to give a good performance since is the last svc also. still...made some mistakes haha. ended the day by staying back to play some bridge and ming jin intro his wife to us. hmm..not too sure abt the name again must go ask char again.

the whole exp made me realised that i really need to discipline myself more. i tend to lose focus over small things like when tv side is shouting very loud. or maybe someone ask a question and i forgot abt following the scipt. also i think i need to make it a habit that if i am serving for all the services next time i need to get plenty of rest if not tiredness will creep in and will lose the sharpness as well.

thank God that kelvyn asked me whether i can help out in the drama team. if he nv ask me, knowing myself i doubt i will also vlounteer my service. thus will not be able to improve myself and accquire this valuable exp.

also, kelvyn and the ministry really took very good care of us. made sure we don go hungry. the welfare really very good. at the end of the day we can rest assure that there will be lunch, dinner and also breakfast.

through this drama get to know sasha from kelvyn's sat team and also tingting more. its a pleasure to serve with them. and i think we really make a good team. helping one another out, helping each other to grow. it has been a tiring week but a blessed week at the same time serving with them.

reached home, read the card. wah so now i am a funny person already. i realised that aft drama i will go to the gents and disappear to go look for my members. well i mus say i enjoy being with my members and friends. since most of my good friends are in the same cg as me. well how to say must clarify myself..since aft drama there is nth to do and all my good friends are in church serving so just walk ard stand one side talk abt serving and what is going on just to relax and chill haha. i always end up being the last to report for debrief haha. feel so pai seh. really adore and appreciate my cgm alot! si hui was asking me either today or one of the days wah nv go find friends ah. looks like everybody now know that i will perform my disappearing act aft drama haha.

had been thinking abt this issue since last week when char told me that she was leaving full time ministry. did not tell many ppl abt this. prayed abt the whole thing commit it to God's hands. was seriously thinking whether to cont pursue my dream to be a cgl anot or rise up in chorus board. well i guess i was pretty much affected by the news thats why i thought abt whether to pursue my dream to be a cgl. come to a conclusion. if God willing i wanna be a cgl and also a leader in chorus board. anything and everything is possible! wanna expand my capacity and also have a positive attitude towards rising up.

this friday will be helping char to shift her stuffs from church office to her house. and this week will also mark the last day she being my zs and cgl. well i have come to term with the news and well is not goodbye but is just another new chpt for her and for me.

on a lighter note heard this on radio, friday is call good friday, sat is called holy saturday and sunday is easter sunday. dunno how true is it but i totally agree easter 2008 is great!

Labels: easter

jus reached home nt long. had dinner with charmaine and val. she shared with us something very personal which only the cgls and wk know abt it. till now i can't digest it. she is going to share it tmrw after cg but i don think i am able to talk abt it.

after she shared, she asked us so how abt it? i am so speechless. dunno wad to say. val asked me to start first. what to say. although i told her i will support you in everything like how you have supported me the last 5 years. but my heart i want to tell her can you reconsider abt it but i know. jus can't imagine how is it like when she is nt around. but i cannot be selfish.

i am glad because she treat me and val as personal friends and not jus member leader relationship. and she said to us because the both of you are the closest to me so i wanna tell you all first before i break the news to the cg. even the whole zone don even know abt it yet.

quite a devastating news. next few months is going to be tough with all the transition. a couple of days ago i was like on the phone with val telling her wah excited and curious to know what char wan to share with us. but now dunno what to feel. feel kindda lost but jus that sometimes we got to let go.

the last thing i wanna do is few months later char thinking did she make the right decision anot. need God's grace and strength to really pull thru. aft easter gonna help char clear her desk and moved her stuffs to her house.

need to compose myself and hold back my tears. tmrw when she announce it got to support her in every way. don think i can post this up till morning before i go and give bs. that is when everyone shld be making their way to cg. finding it tough to go to bed.

sick since monday quite rare for me to fall sick also. i guess must be sunday. because the moment i alight from the bus and walking home it started pouring heavily again. totally drenched when i reached home. at night report back to expo for the drama rehearsal.

despite being sick i still went to work. thursday did not go down because had a fever. was really contemplating whether to go down jurong west yest for the full fress rehearsal. was stil sick but after weighing down the option i decide to go down because if i don get to run thru once i will not be prepare for the easter drama.

during 1st run i did super badly was super lost. quite angry with myself. was like hmm..sandy most likely will not be happy. told myself cannot during recording must be better then the 1st run. thank God it was alot better but personally i still think is not gd enuff even though sandy said that she did find any mistakes for the recording except certain lines quite fast. got to be more strict with myself and run thru the script again in order to deliver precise timing for the subtitles.

yest was the first time i actually view the whole drama. is a whole new thing. very different from the past 4 dramas. something new modern meet oldies. i feel that the drama is good. everyone can expect something new.

was supposed to give blood but this time round i will skip it since i am sick and most likely they will reject me also. looks like my body of steel is finally corroding. shall go the next one.

later going to meet char and val for dinner. was actually suppose to meet up the regular kakis jus spend the day at either my house or val house because they decide to do something economically. but received char msg on wed saying she wanna meet me and val for dinner because she wanna share something with us. wonder wad is it???

at first she say she wanna bring us go eat this sausage thing at orchard there. today change to marina sq sakae sushi. heard from val because she wanna go esplanade later got free performance. val say she only vaguely remember that there is this singer call olivia something performing. my guess shld be olivia newton john cos she is here in singapore to perform for the mosaic festival.

side track a bit, was reading the news and came across this article "Vegas man paints car like police cruiser" - "He started decorating his 2007 Ford Mustang last summer to look like the police cruiser in the "Transformers" movie because his 7-year-old son, Thomas, was fond of the film. "My intent was to re-create the movie car," said Vigil, a 35-year-old disabled veteran from the war in Iraq. "When I came back from Iraq, I tried to spoil him. I wasn't the best dad before." jus show wad a dad would do for his child because he loves him. we cannot turn back time and we have no control wad had happen in the past but we can always pave the way for a better future.



went down to dempsey hill again and visit the ben & jerry. some pic of the ranch. this time went with 3 of my good lady friends and of course daniel as well. is just a chilling session our norm friday night out together. just relax and talk. i think that everybody shld at least go that place once although is really very very inaccessible without a car. but that place is good to chill out.

before i left house, i was in my mom room and she was having this conversation with my big bro. and from the conversation i found out that my mom is going for operation this coming May because my bro call it tumor since and my mom forgotten what is it called in medical terms.

it was first discovered in 2005 but at that time it was small so after consulting a few doc she decide nt to op. but wed she went for checkup the doc say the tumor double in size. thank God is not cancerous yet. my dad wanted her to take it out this month but she does not want to because my aunt going to london to work and no one will be taking my grandpa to hospi for his appointment.

was quite affected by the news and is quite hard to swallow such news. yest and today i was thinking alot. i jus feel that i am not mature and jus not doing enough for my family. wed i was like nt very happy because start of this week i told my mom there is nth at home already because there are times that i will cook. and since i was starting work on thursday i was like thinking if don go on wed no one will be able to accompany her go supermarket also. so i wanted her to do it on wed but she told me she already made an appointment with the doc.

i did not know anything until yest. so i was a bit not very happy also. thinking back i just feel so childish and immature. nv spare a thought for my mom. i feel that i am a family kind of person but i don show it out as well. always show those heck care heck care attitude. but maybe i just don express it well infront of my family. but towards my friend i just am able to do it.

decide to stop working at the end of april so i can be there for my family during may. the only thing now i hope for is i don get call in for army anytime now. just wanna spend more time with my family. also dunno my bro can get leave from army anot.

before i left hse to give bs..i was preparing for my games when i saw my dad who was reading the papers. all of a sudden i jus feel he aged alot. he looked tired. my brothers and me we are in our early twenties and to some of my friends my parents are considered young because my mom is just turning 41 this year and my dad is 51. but today when i reached home after cg my mom jus look so tired like she was sick but it could be she just woke up.

technically speaking is time for them to slow down and enjoy what they are doing instead of still working so that me and my brothers we can have a secure future in future. my dad once told me he and my mom can just retire now and not worry abt money because just from all the rents he collect each month they can live comfortably. but is because of us that i feel they are still working hard although not as hardworking 21 years ago.

now all i want is to be less of a burden and also try nv to have a quarrel anymore. i mean we do quarrel once in a few months over some trival matter but i just feel there is no need to argue anymore. but to treasure one another. this latest medical scare just make me see things in a different light that my parents are getting older and are vulnerable to such things. what is the point of arguing.

was quite affected even when i was giving bs, during cg and after cg. but while giving bs touched on the chpt "the Lord's prayer" was so bless because i was reminded about one thing that God is our healer. while i was preaching i was declaring it as well. i am no doctor but the one thing i can do is just pray pray pray from now till may for my mom. is jus that the last couple of years so many things happen. with my grandpa op, my dad's op, my big bro, my dad who had stitches just above his eyes because of an incident and he is a diabetic but thank God he recovered from it and now my mom i just feel that so many things happening.

after the busy march is over, probably can spend more time at home since i have to attend a few rehearsals. just wanna be there at home now.

led games and offering. thanks jas, for the game. now most of us will look for dan or jas because their sister will always have alot of ideas for games and we can just ask them and use it for cg. if she nv help me i think i no need to slp already. well most of them know that i like to play sabo for my game because i enjoy it haha but this time round decide to "bluff" them a bit. decided that there will be no sabo although i told them there will be. went to buy a bag of gummy sweet for the "losers" before cg start. if not it becomes quite predictable everytime i lead game they will expect sabo.

after cg asked char how was it she said that game and offering is gd but can improve on the offering. some of them told me my offering is gd but the starting and the ending i know i kindda goof it up. well will better it the next time. looking forward to lead more before i go into army.

shld get some rest since there is service and have to report back at expo at 7pm for the easter drama rehearsal. hopefully it don't end very late.

started on a new job today thanks to van. kindda like a job hopper. for me i not very commited to one job for long wanna learn diff things so don really will stay for long in one job also. this time round work for a danish shipping company that deals with import and export i think.

the company have alot of colorful character but overall i think the working environment nt so bad. and they provide fantastic welfare because lunch is provided most likely because work place is at tuas thats why haha. which means i have to wake up early. but nvm got to get use to it because soon i have to do it also.

did not mention the pay is fantastic also. must say that van's mom really help me to get a very good pay. i mean i am satisfy with any pay. but she actually help me get quite a high pay.

now feeling very tired because i seriously need to slp. in about 4 hours plus time i have to wake up and start work at there again. and i am seriously lacking behind in my easter drama script. my bro laptop gave me prob. did not know that he did not install microsoft office..thus i cannot do the subtitles so after work is go home and finish it because thats the deadline.

all i can do is read thru the script but i also don really understand. so this sunday 7.30 gonna be there for the rehearsal. hope to finish it soon so i can go dempsey tmrw to relax. but nvm is the weekend although is a short one but sigh nvm. whole of much will be so stretch dunno can pull thru the whole month anot.

think when april comes i will be a walking dead due to the lack of sleep. can't wait for easter to come and go so i can start resting early haha. for now must channel everything to the easter drama and provide the best service i can.

o yes i am leading games and sharing offering msg this week for cg. tmrw a full day after work need to finish script and need to prepare for the items i am leading for cg. and before cg i need to give bs as well. maybe ask someone to sit in for me for this week. God give me strength!

recently very very tired. also dunno why..it seems that i am always lack of slp although i slp alot. and mind you or rather myself i have been sleeping very early at 10 plus on sunday and monday i was asleep very early and woke up like at 2. that explain my disappearance from msn. well val say i destroy my body clock already and i need to get it tune back if not i will suffer. nth really much happen the last few days.

played soccer just now at marine parade. half way heard a loud sreeching sound. several cars were jamming their brake at ecp. shld be a taxi hit a motor bike. heard from the guys that they saw the passenger flew in the air. quite a serious accident. kindda first time see accident on ecp also and at night as well. dunno who is wrong probably the papers might report the next day shall keep a look out of it. remind me of my own accident last year but of cos mine was as bad as what i saw today.

while on the way home from soccer, received a call from my IC. will be doing easter drama. so the next few weeks will be very pack for me because i have to attend the rehearsals. hopefully it don't eat up my sunday because my sunday very precious to me. want to spend it with my cg. not only that i will be require to serve for all the services.

was kindda reluctant to serve when kelvyn was asking on sunday. because last christmas i was actually suppose to serve forget how many services. but because lack of man power i decide to volunteer. so was hoping maybe during easter big day can spend more time with cg. but i think i quite soft hearted usually even though i may feel reluctant as long as someone tell me lack of man power i will just ok i'll serve for wadever that you need me to do. a time to stretch my capacity bring it to a new level. i believe dramas are way different as compare to emerge.

emerge everything was last min. even when service started we were still frantically trying to sort things out. but drama hmm..well i think is providing first class service to the ppl out there and make them enjoy the drama to the fullest. nt that during emerge we don provide first class service is just that my exp of emerge is everything is rushing rushing and the impt thing is to beat time and deliver what you are suppose to do and learning to be calm in frantic situation.

well i remember probably few months ago, i was talking to my cgm and telling them maybe one day i shld really try doing drama before i go in NS. and somehow i was quite into the idea of doing but somehow somewhere i always ended up hmm passing up the chance. but well probably God is just doing a work in my life since my flesh is always so unwilling.

just going to savour the exp of doing drama and waking up early for the month of march!

hmm..most probably from now onwards got to serve for sat service as well because lack of man power. well i am open to serving because it means learning more and getting to better prepare myself for sunday when i serve.

cannot take it..eyes want to shut already. shall go to bed now. hopefully wake up at 4 to catch man u in action against lyon.

Labels: easter drama

this week feel like the man of the hse. since my dad got injured and my maid not cooking i was task to go get dinner which i don usually do. because my big bro need to return to camp for awhile on tuesday i stayed up so can give him a lift which i don usually do as well.

went to catch "there will be blood" on wed. i finally understand why the academy present daniel day-lewis his naked man award for best actor. flawless his acting. though i have yet to catch george clooney in michael clayton, jack nicholson and i forgot the last person who was being nominated. but comparing daniel and johnny acting i think daniel gave a very good performance. that day i was quite sick..took medicine waited for the drug to kick in so i can fall asleep. slept at 12 plus woke up at 1.10am to open the door for my bro and went back to slp. woke up at 4am also dunno why probably because my back was hurting quite alot.

stayed up all the way. was surprise when my bro came in say because of the terrorist he now have to go back camp. he was suppose to have the whole week off. so i was asked to give him a lift. well till now the terrorist is still having fun playing his hide and seek game. i was like telling my bro sigh..look like they want to put a show up. my bro is in a unit where he drives tank. i was jokking with him is all show, they only want you all to go back. don't tell me they going to ask u drive the tank out and blast him meh.

was suppose to go clarke quay and chill out. because val had her dunno wad sch party at MOS. so to facilitate her van decide clarke quay will be good. so drove down there. the moment me and van enter clarke quay. i thot wah wad happen sia..the haze is attacking clarke quay. felt like i ma chiam have 1 million cigarettes in my mouth. everyone ard us was smoking. we dwell there for probably 30 mins thinking where we shld head to. well no good place so we left there and head to dempsey road.

wah there very dark!!! ok is my first time there also. van and val suggested that the ben & jerry there is solid. had a little trouble finding the ben & jerry. but it was not a mistake to go there. the ambience there is superb. is so like country side like that. they call it ben & jerry ranch and is located at dempsey hill. we ordered belgian waffle. sat at the swing while enjoying my ice-cream waffle.

well the place is nice real nice. have a chance i wanna go back there and maybe visit other restaurant. as long as the place have a good ambience and is quite laid back i think i will like it. sometimes jus need to leave the bustling city life and settle at somewhere quiet where you jus eat, talk and enjoy.

holland v, villa bali are good places to chill but dempsey just gives a different feel. probably because it jus give u the country side feeling. how i wish i can go back to perth and stay in the farm house again.

reached home at 2 plus..now still awake..but then probably going to meet van who is stuck at val's hse because someone lock the house door and val for breakfast at mac. few hours later have to attend cg and give bible study. God give me strength.

anyway heroes the plot getting thicker and thicker. can't wait for "season 2 and a half part 2" to come out. getting hook to this drama. hopefully someone out there have the disc or something. but doubt i can get to watch it often since i am predicting i am entering army soon.

p.s - van, val, jas thanks for the chips and b&j. as much as possible since now i still have my key to freedom i will try to make it on every friday to go chill. my days are numbered! soon they are gonna take my key away from me. so must enjoy to the fullest.

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