Monday and thursday due to work related issue, I was very frustrated. Hopefully these things don't happen anymore. Thinking for weeks, most likely by the end of November I will quite my current job. Because December have quite a few commitments and also I want to take a short break and look for a better job before I go for NS.

Thursday was a stressful day. This week showed me that I need to have better time management. I thought that on Wednesday I already finish half of my cg calling on Thursday would leave me with more time to do ministry calling. However I was so wrong. Earlier, my first cgl called me and gave me things to do for the overnight cycling which took place yesterday. The second thing that crop up was I had to work till 9pm which was quite unexpected and my hp battery life was about to die. That whole day, I felt pretty lousy because I felt that I did not do it with excellence. By 10 plus I was thinking finally I can take breather than I remember that I have to deliver consent forms for my cgm. But decided to leave it on Friday night as I could not contact him.

It got me to think that how true it is, we can never be complacent because we do not know what unexpected things will happen. Thought that I already improve by not leaving everything at the last min but looks like I'm so wrong. Well on every 3rd week I shall till December I will start doing my callings on Tuesday in order to do it with excellence!

Well at least on a positive note, Thursday my zone supervisor who is also my cgl msg me that I will be leading games again this week. Well in my heart I was like hoping to lead games again and I just told God if can let it happen. Actually wasn't expecting it but well it taught me that should not put a limit onto God. Well God is a good God who answer the desires of my heart. Message Pamela for suggestions so that can have more choices to choose from. Thank God for her if not sigh..my head would have explode with all the things that I have to rush out on thursday.

On Saturday after cg, as usual had Charmaine evaluated me for the games. Got a positive review from her. Just that as usual need to speed up with the instructions. Although is not the first time I lead games but knowing myself I am not the best candidate to lead games. But the last 2 weeks I think I really improve.

This week cg sermon link to building fund. Charmaine reminded us about a message which Dr AR Bernard preached before. Whatever you want you got to sow for it. Everytime we tithe that 10% we are tithing to our past. We should look even further. Example, if you want to get a job that pays well say $2000 a month and your current job only pays $1000 we should not just give $100 a month but rather we should give $200. Is all about sowing to our future and not to our past. I must say I am looking forward to this year arise and build campaign.

Talking about this. Although I don't really see very wow blessing each time I gave to the building fund but one thing I wanna say is that God is good. Like on Wednesday my mom ask me out for dinner. Quite rare she will asked me out. The last month or so have been good. I realise that my relationship with my parents have been very close. And also looking back God have been good. Here and there He has bless me alot. Although this is probably the 3rd or 4th time I have contributed to the building fund but I must always remind myself that it is not the blessing that I am after but is the blesser that I am after.

Yesterday had to go down to church early for a training class and after which rush down for cg and back to church to serve and attend service at the same time. Really thank God that my IC can find me a replacement for sunday. The night cycling was fun. Got to interact with other members from the zone and not just my cg alone. At the end of the whole event, I was in charge of the returning all the bikes since I stayed near east coast. Stayed there till 8 plus in the morning before I drove the guys who were with me home. Almost got hit someone elses car because my eyes keep wanting to shut. Slept all the way till 3 plus before I woke up for a moment but couldn't resist it went back to sleep again at 6.30pm. Don't think will sleep late today.

Labels: chorus board, games, my week, work

Today really a lousy day. Feel so stretch. Frankly speaking feel a bit burnt out. During the start of the week I know it will be a busy week. Had to call my cell group members and also my ministry members. But earlier, my first cgl called me to help her out with the night cycling which we are having on Saturday. Today alone I have to call 10 over people. Really very blur and I feel I did not do a great job. Mix up alot of informations. Shall cont with this later when I reach home. Time to collect consent form for this Saturday and deliver it to various members now. Long way...

Labels: stress, tired

The last few days have been boring. My router (dunno how to spell) gave up on me and cause the internet to be down. But thank God, every night have someone on the phone with me to help me kill the boredom. The last few nights have been a very lousy experience. Haven't got a replacement router yet so this painful experience will continue till when I dunno hopefully before my big brother goes to Australia for training.

Not only is my router giving me problem, my personal computer is giving me problem as well. About to pronounce it dead anytime soon. Time to dispose my window 98 com and change to a better one and catch up with the rest of the world.

Trying to keep myself awake because my dad want to catch a boxing match which feature Evander Holyfield and he is afraid he will sleep so if he does I will wake him up to watch the heavyweight match. Although I need to go queue up tomorrow but nevermind sacrifice a bit.

Yesterday celeberated yongheng's birthday over supper at 85 market. Been quite some time we went there together with the rest of the guys for supper. Spend some time with him also, catch up with him. On the way home, he reveal certain things and glad that even though we really now hardly see each other, he still shares with me. Must try to meet him more often.

Thursday close to evening, received a message from Charmaine. It read "this wk u'll lead games in cg k." Was surprise really very surprise. How to say leh. Actually the thought of being a cgl I intend to put it off for the moment since I have to serve the nation and I doubt that during this time I will have the opportunity to be a cgl. I think quite a few people know that I don't really like to lead games because I think I can't lead well for games and ask me to think of what games to play is like very tough although is not the first time I lead games. Hmm..I must admit when I was to lead game I was like argh why games, why not other stuffs like praise or something else. When I reach home from work, God spoke to me and I was reminded not to despise small beginning.

Well, we have 7 team leaders in the cg which comprise of 2 pcgl. So this kind of chance to lead something for cg is very rare. And for me to have this thinking I think is very bad need to change. Heard from my chai huat, my pcgl say originally either me or my good friend valerie will lead praise. I know the reason why I wasn't given the nod to lead praise because I cannot sing well cannot pitch haha. Remind me of last year where Charmaine have to teach me to pitch and sing in the right key. Those were the days. Nonetheless I am thankful to God and to Charmaine for giving me the chance to lead games. Hopefully from here on can do more things also. Had Charmaine evaluated me after cg, she said it was good just that when I give the instructions it was kindda slow but overall it was good.

Message Pamela for some suggestions. Must really thank her for helping me think of the game and also yongheng for explaining to me how to play the game. If not I will be like worrying what game to play and stuffs. She is really a good friend, always help me out whenever I'm in a stuck.

Next week going to have a night cycling outreach. Therefore cg, service will be on a Saturday including the night cycling. Wanted to skip the night cycling because I have to serve on Sunday. But cannot do that anymore. Charmaine wants me to be there. Was thinking, my ministry team do not have another director and if I were to skip sunday service will it like leave my team short handed. Charmaine say do I need her to inform my IC i cannot make it to serve next sunday, I told her is ok I will inform him myself. Probably at the same time discuss with my IC maybe on Saturday I can help to teach another person to be director.

Can't wait for the heavyweight match to commence. My eyes are shutting. Well for my dad sake shall stay away so I can wake him up. And I can go to bed also. Need my sleep.

Labels: boxing, etc, games, internet

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Was suppose to go help out my aunt today. So after cg yesterday went down for to expo for service. Around 9 plus yesterday received a message from her that I need not come down today. Went to celebrate one of my buddy birthday at 85 market. Today is his birthday and he i think should be touching down at Taipai soon. Just Chai Huat, Shi Jie, Gordon the birthday boy Daniel and myself. We just stay down there eat and fellowship. After thinking long and hard still can't decide what to get for him so during dinner yesterday shuang kuai asked him what he wants for birthday present because cg got him something which he does not like. While I sending him home he told me that the last 3 years the presents that cg gave him are not gifts that he wanted. Now I know what to get for him already. Wait till he come back this Friday. Can't wait for him to come back, because I asked him to help me get some stuffs there. Wonder what will he get for me.

Seeing the year coming to an end soon, and everybody flying off to different countries I can't wait to go for mine as well. Just some final touches left before everything is confirm.

As I have already attended service yesterday, decide not to attend service today. Woke up early to send Shang to expo because he had an operation not long ago. Sent him there before I drove home to spend my day at home with my family.

Yesterday after cg, Charmaine announce that there will be cgm at Riverwalk on the 18 Oct follow by night cycling at East Coast. Was quite looking forward to it and of cause Was kindda of hmm..happy because we only need to attend Saturday service for that week. Went to check the calendar and sadly to say don't think I will join them for the cycling because that week I have to serve for both Saturday and Sunday service. Of course the Breakaway camp on Dec 2nd week combine with Brother Darren and Gabriel zone at Bishan. Was thinking of not attending, but been thinking about it again I think I'll just attend the camp and enjoy myself. No harm attending camps.

I remember last week during fellowship time. Wen Kai told me something about knowing where he stand. This sentence have been lingering in my mind. Actually this week was quite sian and I told some of my friends that I really don't know where I stand and feel like giving up. But some of them told me to think properly and since I have been waiting since Feb why give up now. Some times i feel like just bash up myself. Till now I can't get rid of my shyness even though I have been saying I want to.

Recently caught a japanese drama call yi gong shen de yan lei or one litre of tears. I must say is a very touching show. Nowadays I hardly spend my time watching show. But because I was bored I decided to watch this show that my brother whom originally ask me to pass to my aunt before he went into army. But because I keep on forgetting thus it remain with me. So decide to kill time by giving it a try. Was hook to the show. Although is only 2 discs and 11 episodes. Spent 2 nights trying to finish watching it. I must admit I weep quite alot. Literally like the title of the show one litre of tears it seems i too shed one litre of tears. Is based on a true story.

Labels: drama, movie, new curtain

Sick and out of order.

Have to call those PSLE kids pray with them a promise I made on Tuesday.

Once again, this week have to serve. Was director for both day. There are still things to learn. The sequence and all that is already heavily imprinted in my mind. Just that like what Pastor like to say, chew gum and walk at the same time. Learnt about having to go up fast. Tend to only go up when I finish saying cg up.

Had to stay back to serve for the Christian Men's Network (CMN). My zone was not involve but yes I must say I do really want to serve for this segment. I remember when I first came to church and there was this brother call Royston whom I looked up to. Full of manhood, very gentleman and very caring towards the sister. I always try to model after him and my ex cgl Shaun. My zone is not a very big zone. We use to have this mini men's network too a few years ago but because everybody was busy thus it was cancel. Pst today asked how many of us had never attend CMN before. Come to think of it, 5 years in church I never attend any of it before till today while I was serving I was trying to catch lesson 1 at the same time. Trying to get a few of my friends to attend the next one together even though my zone is not involve but well it does not hurt to learn more and graduate into a real man haha.

Well back to chorus board. Although the team is small but I do really enjoy my time with the team. 9 months there and I don't get bored serving. Of course the people who are in the ministry long have been very good to me. From the first day when I first enter they quite patient to teach. Although we have really limited opportunity to serve but serving with them really bring joy. Been in children church and cg ministry. I think beside cg ministry I must say chorus board exp is superb. Never really serve with other teams before so don't know how it felt like but I just kind of look forward to the next time we serve. Also, is very bless to have a good leader who is always patient. Although I think that this week cause his head to roll but he always encourage us and tell us is alright to make mistakes just learnt from it. Indeed our mistakes are stepping stones towards greatness. Well in fact so far all the leaders in this ministry I hardly see them flare up, even when we make mistakes we just encourage one another.

Was suppose to go for blood donation but the queue was phew super long. Decide not to go for this drive but instead attend the next drive. Need to go get one of my best friend a birthday present. Give it to him on Saturday when we attend service together before he fly to Taiwan next Sunday. But cannot find anything. Maybe when Friday after work go and look see again. Hopefully can find something by than.

I think so far so good..have been keeping to my promise to be back home by 10 except the weekend. Well learning to balance my life. After a stressful and busy week. Don't think that this week will be worst. Come to think of it, next tuesday have a mock cg. Don't know must I prepare anything. I think better check with Charmaine. Oh yes have to lead prayer meeting before cg better get it prepare earlier.

Got to thank Pamela, everytime I wanna give up on a certain she will always encourage me. Because kindda stress out..and cg keep on piling more things for me to do almost got ya bian by the workload I felt like giving up on certain things. But just remember the conversation with her decide that yep need to ask for strength and also need to ask God to expand my capacity. Obviously my capacity is too small..need a bigger one.

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