Saturday cg at this Egyptian restaurant was great. The place was gives a very pleasant feeling and staging cg there for the friends is less intimidating. The word was short which linked up with the offering. Last week had a tough time trying to come up with a game. Actually thought that Charmaine won't use Wen Kai and my game but was stun when after 2 games she say lets continue with the third game. Wasn't prepare for it. Was really very relax just want to enjoy the games but did not expect that I need to lead the games with Wen Kai. Next headed to city area to cont with the fellowship before everybody head for home.

Sunday, while I was out playing lan with the guys after our fellowship, received a call from Kelvyn my chorus board IC. He told me some things which I also need to let some of them know when I called them up. Ok seriously I still don't really feel comfortable talking to my ministry members. Few reasons, but I think because the time spent with them is so short and plus my introvert nature make it hard. Fear still grip me when I have to call them. At the same time I am also concern about this thing, after all I am in this ministry for like 9 months. They enter this ministry longer than me sigh..have to fine tune myself.

Another thing Kelvyn mention was, he want to train me up as a leader. Thank God for the favor of man. During the last 9 months it really have been an enjoyable experience in this ministry. One thing I feel about myself is I am never very vocal. The last time I served, Kelvyn asked me what do I want to see myself in chorus board. Well, at that time I said something else. But when I reached home after service, I thought through and I remember one thing he mention during dinner with him. "Our team unlike others, even when their IC are not around they can be assured that there are people who can take care of the team and run the service." From that day I really thought of telling him yes that is what I want to see myself in chorus board. To rise up to the occasion and continue to learn more in this ministry and also be like the rest in other teams.

Last week had a challenging week, this week is a really long and tough week. 8 people to call this week, earlier was worrying about the lyrics that we have to change for the data base because Pastor felt that it would be less intimidating if the lyrics are not in CAPS as I could not open the folder but all is ok now. Plus work, cg and service, I actually felt stress and kind of worn out. But the thought that it will be Wednesday, kind of lifted up my mood because that is the day I will message Pamela and just pour out everything. Hope that it will be a great day tomorrow.

Labels: chorus board, stress, tired

Yesterday caught Aladdin on tv. Very old show..till now the song is still ringing in my head. Went to search for the disney songs. I remember in my dad's com there is this file that contains all the disney songs. Don't know where it go to.

Yesterday had a "frustrating" night. Trying to think of a game for this Saturday cg. Rack my brain can't think of any. Earlier in the day message pam and ask her for ideas haha she also don't have much any ideas. In the end at night submit a new game. LOL today receive the report, Char don't seem to fancy it haha. So in the end might not use our game.

Today, was talking to Shi Jie about the Bangkok trip guess he really going to fly aeroplane already. Sigh..when I so look forward to it and than he drop this bomb shell. Now also don't know what is the outcome.

Today my buddy Chai Huat came over to my place for awhile. Well basically his presence here save me from boredom the next few days. My "business partner" just provided me with some movies that allow me to spend some quality time being a couch potato.

Now that both my brothers are in army and I have stick to my own personal "rule" to reach before 10pm each day. I realise one thing that my relationship with my parents seem to be much better. Yesterday when I reached home, found out that my mom bought cookies for me. Today bought KFC for supper. Even offered to help me pay my library fines. Basically I feel so pamper by them. Even my dad also very caring..because there are injuries to my leg he also tend to my injuries.

I consider myself bless. 20 this year. First time never get a single cent from my parents. Have been earning it myself. People who know me know that I don't like to ask my parents for money even if I'm broke. But one thing my dad will always put in $100 in my account whenever I'm broke. Of course I spent it fast haha. Show me alot about my parents. Come to think of it both my brothers also stop receiving allowance at the age of 20. But well, like I always say I'm the poorest in the house. Even my maid have more than me. Thats why in the past my dad will always have to transfer $100 to my account. Now that I'm working I think is time for me to contribute back.

My twin brother occasionally will buy bread for us. My big brother hmm..except being me and twin bro banker don't remember he do anything jus that everything he wants he will get it himself instead of asking my parents to buy. Me well I think if possible each month I want to contribute to the family. Not that my parents need it. Probably shall contribute 100 each month. Since I am the only one at home well this is the little I can contribute back. Hopefully from this learn to love my parents more and do a part for the family instead of just my parents continuing to "pamper" me.

Well I don't know, I thought that I will only become more mature when I enter army. Did not really expect that actually I think of my family more now that both my brothers are in army and I'm the only one here. Now I spare alot of thoughts for my family and is not just about chilling out and relaxing with my friends. But to be back home also to be a good boy. Slowly realising that I have become a home person. Maybe except for the weekend cause got cg and service if not I will be home.

Last week attended make up cg. Thought that the cg meeting was superb. Originally suppose to talk to Charmaine concerning Shi Jie. However during the meeting, felt something from the Lord, had a talk with him after cg and decide there is no need for me to talk to Charmaine about it. Well after that send him to Vivo and back home after supper with the guys. Well glad that I can be of help to him. Yesterday receive a thank you message from Yongheng. Made my day. I think thats what friends are for. Even though we are no longer in the same zone and we hardly get to see one another except recently. Glad that at least I was thought of and approached by them to help them in the situations they are in.

Finally now I am the king of my home. Kinda of boring though. No one at home when I'm home. By the time my parents are back, almost time for me to go to bed. Told myself to be back home by 10 everyday. If not my mom will be the only one at home a bit not good. Told the cg on Saturday during our fellowship. Valerie say sure only last for a week. Today had leaders meeting..return home not long ago and she reminded me that it did not even last for 2 days. Sigh..today forsee sure will reach home late, so today not counted. If not I will try to reach home by 10pm everyday.

This week cg will be at a Egyptian restaurant..new concept. Have to plan games and stuffs. Today had prayer meeting with the zone. Learnt new things. Zoom in, focus, have a vision while praying in tongues, see it come to pass. Although is very tiring for me to rush down to riverwalk after work but is all worth it. Next meeting will be 3 weeks later on tuesday and it will be a mock cg. Not sure what is expected of us. Kinda look forward to it. Next 3 weeks I believe Charmaine will be imparting and teaching us what to do. So exciting.

Get tired easy nowadays. Time wait for no one. I think I getting old already. While my friends are counting down to their birthday mine is like another 5 months only. So fast!

Labels: cg, 朋友们

September 11 means something to the world as they celeberate the terrorist attack on America 6 years ago. But September 11 hold a special place because last year I got my driving licence. Well one year has come and gone just like that. Now I can officially drive without the probation plate. I really detest that plate cause I get scolded whenever I fail to take it down after I use the car and quite ma fan if the toyota harrier is not at home and I will be thinking whether to use the other car and risk not getting caught again. Also it was 4 months ago when it all started through messaging.

No big celebration or anything. In my heart I am just glad that the one year have pass. In this one year let me think receive quite a number of fines, damage the side of the car, got hit from the back by a lorry and risk having my licence revoke for another similar offence. Well from now on I no longer need to worry about having my licence getting revoke for not putting the P-plate up.

I remember that last month told Pamela and my friends after that incident will become a good citizen. Kept to that promise. Finally I have liberty to both cars. And the bonus thing this Saturday I will be officially crown King of the house. My twin brother going enlisting. No one will be at home till very late at night with the exception of my maid. No one will use the car except me. Well this is the high life. But with this, there is a price to pay. If I fail to catch the last bus I have to take cab home no one will come pick me up. Although both my brothers have licence but my big bro don't know the roads well. Sigh..

Suppose to have steamboat outreach this Saturday after cg but is change to next week at Waraku (dunno how to spell). Cg will be held there. A whole new concept. Having cg at a restaurant. I won't say the food is fantastic. Actually when we had conference call just now with Char and she mention that restaurant in my heart I was like huh that place ah. After going there last month I kind of promise myself never to go back cause the food is not to my liking as in there are better jap restaurants around. Well but the place is nice, comfortable. Well in the end all this are still for the friends.

Another long day tomorrow...SJ if you reading this, for the whole night till your accounting exam start I am at your disposal. Call me if you need help. After this whole ordeal, I am expecting a treat haha just kidding.

Labels: September 11

Wednesday met up with Shi Jie before his bible study at riverwalk. Went to catch Hairspray at Marina Square. Quite a nice show very laughable as well but there are certain scenes where it starts to kick in something to ponder. After that went to meet up with Daniel, Chai Huat, Jackson and Gordon for dinner at City Hall.

Thursday met up with Valerie one of my very good female friend. Bought her dinner because I promise her that when she grad from SOT will buy her a meal. Met up at Dhoby after her class at SMU. Quite some time since I and her go out have a meal and catch up with one another even though she is my cgm but we don't get to talk to one another much because both very busy with things. So it was quite a good time catching up with her and just chat about almost everything.

Friday suppose to be my most happening day of the week. Sigh..but because of Shi Jie sigh...I suffer Friday Blues. Once again thanks to him all my friends went for jamming session and throw me at one side. Argh!! Whole day at home rot to death and attempting to watch Syriana which I catch nothing at all. In the end switch channel watch Bleach instead.

Cg today was great! Teamwork! Being there for one another. Finishing the race together with everybody! A game of baseball..everybody helping one another to reach the homerun. Final stretch before the year end. Just want to reach the homerun with everybody. Thinking aback realise that this year been fruitful. Helped quite a few of the guys and in turn they were there to pull me along when I was down. This cg E421 & E438, probably is the best cg where everybody really will help one another. Really like this cg alot. Make me make a decision to step out of my comfort boundary and going to know other people and help them. I think this year probably impacted 6 guys in the cg. And this 6 guys in the cg are very close to me now with the exception of one cause he is the next person I am helping. This are works that really put a smile on my face and make me go the extra mile regardless how tired I am.

Found out something about Pamela while chatting with her.

Heard something quite interesting while driving yesterday. I think it was fm98.7 they were repeating one segment of their programme. There was this quote from this lady"opening my wardrobe is like going shopping". How true it is. Well when I open mine I think it need a major overhaul haha. Just need something that smell like cash can le haha.

Tomorrow time to serve another opportunity to learn another day to improve on what I already know and to provide consistency. Miss serving today cause there was supposed to be steamboat outreach than at the very last minute receive a msg say postpone to next sat instead from Charmaine.

So excited another 2 more days to my freeeeeedom.

Labels: cell group, weekday

Suppose to go play soccer today but because too little people postpone it to next tuesday instead. Borrow some comics home to read to kill a little time. As of tomorrow I will be king of the house. My twin brother going to Genting and in 11 days he will be packing off to Tekong. Life will be a bit too quiet. Both my brothers not around. Parents don't return home until 10 plus and by than I would already be sleeping or in my room reading or chatting away.

Was asked to attend this talk held by this brother who will be sharing his testimony during this weekend service. But could not make it as I have things on from 3pm - 5pm. Would have love to go attend his talk. Well I guess I can only do it during service this week.

Another long day tomorrow, have to wake up at 5 to send my brother to Golden Mile to go take his coach ride to Genting. Afternoon meet Shi Jie at City Hall for a movie before heading home because he has bible study.

One good thing, I have the car to myself. No one will use it except me although I have already lost interest in driving unless is venture to the unknown if not I rather stayed home.

Rented 5 titles yesterday..Chronicle of Narnia, i,Robot, Gremlins, Syriana and Underworld Revolution. Shall store this movies into my laptop. When I'm bored take it out and watch it again. Thanks to my "business partner" idea.

Labels: my day

Busy busy busy..yesterday had too much things to do. Seats wasn't enough, had to take care of the cg, even when service started had to go and fetch Valerie's parents. Been some time since I was kept busy. But thank God I am not alone like in the past. This time round Jackson help me as well. Whole service was great the finale was superb and seeing how proud Wen Kai and Valerie parents were, brought joy cause they were able to be close to them when they left the stage.

Went to airport for fellowship. I don't know but I am beginning to like to fellowship with the cg. Probably it brings back reminiscence where so many people gather together after service to go for fellowship. Even those who stayed back for ministry came to join us. Just enjoy the closeness of the fellowship. It just shows that people do change when you show genuine love to them. Yeah love is contagious. Play a new game with the poker cards before the whole group of us left airport.

Was on my way home. Very tired. Slept at 4am before I had to wake up at 8 for service. Thank God, Expo is not far from my place. After the family dinner, rest a little while before I went to bed at 8pm. First time in a long while since I slept very early. People know me as someone who don't sleep early. However was too tired slept all the way till 10 the next day. Great rest..needed that recharge!

Back to Monday blues...simply nothing to do. I remember a conversation with Pamela, so I decided to pay a visit to VideoEzy. Rented 5 movies for $20. Just finished one title. Was surprise that they have a old title call "Gremlins". A very old 1984 Steven Spielberg's movie. Had to borrow it and re-embrace my childhood. Remember watching this movie in the 90s on the tube (television). Visiting Los Angeles Disneyland when I was super young and enjoying this Gremlins theme at there. Actually glad that I made that trip to VideoEzy. Probably will visit there more often.

This week will another busy week. Need to make alot of phone calls and also get use to the new cg grouping. In addition after cg have to go for steamboat fellowship. Thus will not be able to serve for Saturday service.

Another 8 more days. So looking forward to it! When that day comes will talk more about it.

Labels: my day

Had a hair cut this week with Daniel. Thought that the person cut it very short. Well never mind anyway my hair grow fast I hope.

This week seem like a very busy week for me. Thursday had meeting with Charmaine with the rest of the team leaders from both cg. Now my cg merge with E438 but still exsist in seperate names. Some major changes in the teams. Even as we entered into the last quarter of the year, realised that now I am entrusted with more things to do. Have to lead prayer meetings, have to plan team outing, have to come together plan cg outing. So many things to do.

Friday went out with the guys to go get Wen Kai's SOT graduation present. Was searching high and low like crazy for the present. In the end settle for a shirt that a few of us thought that was not so bad from Far East. After that drove the guys for supper. Spending some quality time together fellowship with one another at our usual hangout at 85 market.

Today before cg, Charmaine inform Wen Kai to let me know she want me to lead prayer meeting and she wants to evaluate me. Seriously, did not really want to lead prayer meeting. My heart jump for joy when Wen Kai message me that he will lead everything. But when he called me on thursday night to tell me about the changes I was panicking. But I thank God that at least everything run smoothly. Hit the panick button because when I reach Val's place I was still very unprepare only the worship song was done. Called Yongheng ask him to help me with something. After going through the worship song with Glenn who was playing for me, God minister to me and with just 30 mins before prayer meeting start everything was completed. Thought that Glenn played well, first time I have a guitarist that know me well and need not me to give much signal. Made everyone pray because felt that is time everyone take charge of their own spiritual life and step out in faith to pray. Thought that the prayer meeting was better than the last one I held last 2 weeks. After the whole meeting, realise that everything happened for a reason and made me really enjoy leading prayer meeting and yearning to do more.

It has been some time since I felt so stretch. Realise that I need to expand my capacity. Was really thinking of dropping some stuffs cause I was afraid that I could not handle so much things. Talk to Pamela about it and she said it was a bad idea and gave me some advice. The last time I felt so stretch was when I and Yongheng were leading the cg. Some times I realise when the going get tough I tend to start to be negative doubting myself that I can handle everything that is given to me. But thank God for the people around me who help me.

Talking to some of the people make me found out that actually I love what I am doing right now helping people. Was kind of surprise during the meeting with Charmaine, she said that Lebrace feel comfortable with me and can relate to me. Having people saying that I am their mentor. Maybe that why even though so many things happen but I still cling onto the one goal and that is be a cgl one day. Helping people, teaching people.

After service today, Charmaine was talking to me and Glenn. She was thinking of asking us accompany her go JB because she wants to buy shoes. Than she made this statement. As we know, JB is becoming increasingly unsafe. She said later when got people want to rob us with a parang on one hand instead of us protecting her is her that who have to protect us. Wahahahaha. As we make our way to Bedok for fellowship I was telling Glenn maybe we should go JB on Monday and after that tell Charmaine JB was fun. "Suan" her back for "suaning" us.

Tomorrow have to return home early for family dinner. Can't stay out too long. Looking forward to SOTM finale. SOTM really speak directly to the heart and is like going through spiritual shower.

Labels: my week

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