Sometimes a smile means more than a dozen roses

Saturday, February 28, 2009

♥ 9:16 PM

first time in the planning room to start prep for the upcoming local exercise. seriously i have not a single ounce of clue what they are discussing. always end up being clueless whenever they ask me to participate in such things.

from march onwards can see myself being busy. a propose bronco road licence and also me and my another friend are trainer to teach the whole branch how to use a programme which i kindda forgotten how to use.

this week my sgt confirm something. my branch major whom we refer to as S4 approve me being my finance spec understudy which means that he trust me at the same time a minimum rank of CFC if nt in house promotion to being a spec. however there are alot of things that i have to seriously consider before i can give my final ans. kindda hit a rut. something that is quite vexing me.

my seniors introduce us a new card game call "Bang". seriously is a nice game and quite addictive. is a very tactical game. really need to put on thinking cap and play very seriously. instead of watching movies we have been in our senior bunk playing this game.

tuesday went to orchard with a couple of my seniors to look at psp and also just hang out.

wednesday night was spend in the gym carrying weights. thank God for fantastic friends. usually when we go work out or exercise a whole lot of us will go together. because of this can slowly see results. now starting to attack on my 2nd goal for the year 2009. so far this year have started on the right track with me still going strong with the goals that i planned for the year.

thursday went out with a grp of the guys to lot 1 for a quick dinner before heading back to camp.

friday morning had to wake up early as me and my senior were the time keeper for this event call armor road relay. travel to gedong. actually i have this secondary post for like a month plus. get to see a different side of the regulars. alot of them are actually very nice person.

yest supposed to catch last chance harvey sigh in the end because of me actually missed the show. since at orchard so decide to chill at starbucks located outside of pacific plaza with van. it seems like i very long nv see my friends already. hardly been spending time with them as well.

afternoon was spend at orchard with my army friends. did not really do much as well.

right now all i can think of is melbourne. it seems like everybody in my branch are talking abt where they will be heading in june.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

♥ 12:12 AM

early booked out today. went for home visitation at whampoa. seriously i thank God. i think so far my stay at brigade i got a very good friendship with my seniors. my spec ask me whether i want to be his understudy and also my IC also want me to stay in the branch.

somethings happen yest as such my commander wanted to decentralise us whereby 4 guys will have to go over to signal side. this decision will definately affect us very badly because i don wish to go over. actually i feel that my chances of staying in this branch is quite high since i got quite gd feedbacks from my seniors.

this week my mom and bro flew to melbourne. she will be there for like 2 weeks plus. made my way down to the airport on tuesday. had dinner with my mom at crystal jade shanghai cuisine which is ok ok only. won't be seeing my bro until june when i fly over with my dad and twin bro.
decide to also spend more time at home since my mom is not at home.

most likely will be renting a car and drive down to sdyney or something. got to plan everything well when the day come. maybe just maybe can have the opp to fly SQ. i have so much things that i wan to do in australia so i kindda look forward to it. this trip is more or less confirm unless my brigade don't free me.

badly injure my left thigh after a game of soccer. affecting the way i walked. sucking up the pain. this coming tuesday there will be IPPT. i wanna skip it since i am nt in the right condition to run. next week is gonna be another busy week got to run to a couple of different camps to do some stuffs.

have this conversation and i feel wad is there to be so concern about. have than have don't have than don have. not like i am in a hurry or anything. beside it leaves me being very focus on the stuffs that i wan to achieve.

Monday, February 16, 2009

♥ 2:46 PM

had this very interesting conversation with van yest and i was made aware of something new. i think i can agree to a certain extent to what we talked abt yest. i think ever since i enlisted into army i think this is the fittest me i have ever seen couple with something that happen last year made me decide to just change the way i look at things and the way i carry myself.

in addition to what we talked abt, i think because as i grow older become more wise i feel that $ is no longer a worrying problem. i dunno maybe as i grow older starting to feel my spending power increase as well but i am not saying that i am a spendthrift or anything.

afterall change is the only constant thing.

was surfing the net when i come across some interesting quotes...

"Time Is The Longest Distance Between Two Places" - Tennessee Williams

"The longer it takes you to realize you can’t go back to the past, when things were the way they were, the longer it takes you to move on." - The O.C

"We cling to music, to poems, to quotes, to writing, to art, because we desperately do not want to be alone. We want to know we aren’t going crazy and someone else out there knows exactly how you’re feeling. We want someone to explain the things we can’t. We love everything tied up neatly, easy, simple, and when we can’t do that, it scares the hell out of us. To not know the next step, or where you’re headed, kills. Being unsure isn’t in our plans. But its those moments, the ones where you risk it and step unknowingly into the future that assures us life is larger than we’ll ever know." - Unknown

"You aren’t going to be his first, last or his only. He’s loved before, he will again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect. You aren’t either. The two of you will never be perfect but if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He is not going to quote poetry, he’s not going to be thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t expect more then he can give. Try not to over-analyse. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad and miss him when he’s not there." - Unknown

"Don’t hold on just because you think there’s no one else. There will always be someone else. You’ve got to believe you’re worth more than being repeatedly hurt by someone who doesn’t really care and believe that someone will see what you’re really worth and treat you the way you should be treated." - Ces D

♥ 1:37 PM

yesterday had a second round of celebration at waraku at marina square. thing is the previous day i was jus going through the pictures taken over the past years when i came across the photos last year. it reminded how my best friends in church jason, yh and ch actually took time to come and celeb with me.

as i was making my way out, i was thinking sigh this year very diff because nv get to celeb my birthday with them. for me i don really have much time to meet up with jason and yh since we are in a diff cg so usually my birthday is always somehow the 1st meet up for us every year.

little would i know the surprise is all my super duper good friends were invited to come for the dinner. though as usual i spoil the surprise but moment i step out of waraku to go use the gents i was shock to see shang, yh, jason, mel, hx, jieqi all waiting outside. gordon joined us a bit later. seriously i nv expect to see them since all say like no time.

spend the remaining night at esplanade. i have known this guys for 5 - 9 years. jason made a remark during our conversation "pak si buay zhao" which is quite true. these are the friends that really impacted me in my 7 years in church and no matter how hard the beating i will also not leave church because of the friendship and relationship that we have foster.

i am nt the best of friends but i am super blessed with wonderful friends like them which spur me to give my utmost best to the friendships.

really need to thank a few ppl for making my 22nd a memorable one..

credit have to go to van. thanks for doing a great job and making my birthday a highlight every year. thanks for all the effort. though i spoilt the surprise haha but i really apologise. i think is hard to wan to surprise me. anyway thanks for the photo montage getting the people in the ministry and my gd friends to cooperate with you wah i have nth to say. thanks for the wonderful present love it alot. i promise ur bithday will be smashing as well we will settle dinner at 85 than have a drink at simei starbucks haha.

thanks dan. i know you are a busy man. despite ur heavy schedule in sch i am amazed u took time out to plan my birthday with van. appreciate you with all my heart. thanks for the gift.

ch..well wad can i say i have known him for 8 years go through so much together not as gay couple haha. i think no need to say much you shld know wad i wan to say alr. also thanks for the 2nd round of drinks that day.

to jason and yh. my first cgm jason whom i look upon as a big bro whom i know for the last 7 years and yh for the last 9 years. really appreciate you guys alot. actually took time out to come and celeb my birthday. even though we really don get to meet others often but i will really make an effort to meet up with you guys often this year.

to glenn thanks for being there. even though we hardly get to c each other because of our busy schedule but you have always make ur presence known by dropping me msg whether wan to hang out anot. made me feel like i am not forgotten.

to char probably the best leader in my life. thanks for remembering my birthday.

lastly to all the grp of guys from my ministry and cg who made the photo montage possible and to my friends who drop me birthday msg.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

♥ 4:52 AM

recently i also dunno why so busy in camp. understand that there are a few vehicles that me and my friends need to service. other than that i think is all the sai kang that we have to do. don remember that i had much time to actually go work out this week. either i will retire early or catch a movie in camp with my seniors.

managed to catch "Changeling" really a superb movie. really like clint eastwood movies alot. i think he is a fantastic actor/director. next day watch "Rock n Rolla" and "Body of Lies" but in the end also nv finished watching because half way i was so tired i decide to go to bed.

had a busy day on friday. book out very late as well because had some unfinished work in camp. applied off on mon but i think my off will be cancel because tmrw got outfield ex. and we are lacking of drivers.

straight after i booked out went for make up cg before i went down to meet my mom to go holland v together to collect the cake i ordered. was giving some suggestions to my friend who bought a cake from there as well after talking to me. nv tried the cake from coldrock before but according to my family they say is nice even though i did not tried it yet.

spend the night with my gd friends chai huat, dan and van at introbar and city space at swisstotel. enjoy my night there just that the time we spend there was short. regretted not going there early.

initially they wanted to celeb my birthday at city space instead of introbar but because there were no available tables at city space, dan and van changed their plans and settle for introbar.

i was surprised because me and ch was still pondering what drinks to order when at 12 the manager of introbar emerge with a cake from prego. apparently they made arrangement with the manager to bring the cake out at 12.

straight after we order the manager from city space called and told us there was a table available. so we decided to down our drinks fast so we can make our way to city space.

made our way to the top level of swisstotel where city space is located. it is highly commendable, the sceneries provided there are first class. the beautiful skyline is accompanied by soothing live music.

once we reached there this jazz singer who look like jacintha sang a birthday song for me. another arrangement made by the lovely manger there. had another round of drinks with the group before leaving the place at 2.

so far really had a memorable 22th birthday...

just came back from a birthday lunch with my family at tung lok at paramount. soon got to head out again for dinner.

Sunday, February 08, 2009

♥ 5:21 PM

caught this 3 movies yesterday during my guard rest. i was actually dying to catch slumdog millionaire when it hit the theatre. however after watching it yest i am thankful that i did not waste my money. don think this show is worth my $10. however this show is average not so bad.

caught the curious case of benjamin button on friday. rush down to lido to catch it with dan and van. if i am one of the judge on the oscar panel, this movie would definately get the nod for best picture.

brad pitt is so suave in the movie. seriously i totally love that movie alot. i am very tempted to get the dvd when it is out. although this movie may not be able to recoup all the money spent but is really a great movie.

there were a few scene where brad pitt and cate were riding the bike. i kindda made up my mind to go learn how to ride a bike. was talking to my camp mate that during june or so we will go take our bike theory lesson and from there go learn how to ride bike. even though i know my parents will disapprove but i think is quite cool to drive that retro/classic bike.

super tired after guard duty. however i am quite surprise i actually enjoy my guard duty for the first time probably because yest we had 5 ppl doing and all of HQ form up the 15 guards which kindda ensure that the moments were not dull.

managed to fulfill my goal for the month of jan. now that we are in feb quite sure can fulfill my goals as well. i think this fri probably when i book out or something i will go and get this pair of shoes that i saw with ch last week. kindda like it.

looking forward to this coming long weekend since i took off on monday.

made the decision to order a ice cream cake from cold rock online for my dad's birthday since ice cream chef at my place don sell cakes.

Friday, February 06, 2009

♥ 9:26 PM

caught the reader with my family last week. is a very nice movie.

back in camp this week caught these 2 movies. thanks to my senior i am now able to catch up with the past movies. movies that i wanted to watch. passengers has a story plot where one will never expect and will only realised it towards the end of the show. bolt super funny show.

moment we start our movie screening, people will start streaming into the bunk and join us. however on wed our csm caught someone bringing in pirated dvd so there goes our tv. no more privilege. was quite sian because it would mean back to the mundane life in camp.

however thanks to my senior can cont to watch the tv when he requested for permission to have the tv relocated to our branch office which means we get to enjoy the aircon and the sofa.

been so busy in brigade. monday had to make a trip to IMM to settle some stuffs for the officers CNY celeb. moment we reached back camp it was abt time for me to start doing guard duty.

next day have to prepare everything for the CNY celeb which made me feel like i have been very made use of by one of my capt. don really think he treat us like human.

wed was spend doing day guard and than 1 hour in the gym follow by running in the stadium. thursday spend the whole morning in the workshop doing some vehicles before spending the next half waiting for my turn to get a hair cut before going back to bunk to wait for nights out.

went to ps carl's jr with my senior and some of the spec from another branch. really enjoy
spending time with them. i think we been quite a strong influence to one another. out of the 10 of us we only had 3 smokers in the grp. however this week all 3 quit smoking. well although they quit smoking like 2 days but than is already a fantastic achievement.

been trying very hard to get them to quit smoking. well they took the first step believe that a little more time soon they will stop smoking.

was reading the newspaper today when my senior made it known to us that ipod touch going at 15% discount. on thursday we were at ps looking at the ipod touch. he was thinking of getting an ipod touch for his girlfriend as valentine gift. seriously i am very tempted to buy the 32gb ipod touch since my ipod giving me some prob.

decided against to buy since i need to save up and pay off my debts. probably later this year when i clear my debt i will consider buying.

have to head back to camp tmrw morning for guard duty again. feeling quite sian and tired. but i am also very tempted to catch the curious case of benjamin button tonight. still haven't decide whether to go and watch.

facing a prob whether to order a cold rock cake online or to make a trip down to holland v right now to take a look.

next week got to go either gedong or go outfield ex. i hope i don get dispatch for outfield ex rather go gedong to lowload vehicle than to suffer outfield. another long week for me next week.