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Labels: new wallet

Friday zone meeting wasn't that great. Put in alot of effort however in the end no time to put up the welcome slide because of all the last minute slides that I need to do sigh..but well never mind there is always another time. Seriously some times I don't get it..don't know how many time I have done zone meeting and each time I don't seem to get it right keep on having mistakes and it does not seem to reduce. Quite fed up with myself. Finally get to fulfill one of my wish and that is to serve the zone but don't seem to cancel out all those mistakes. Although my ZS never say anything but I think I need to do more. Need to let each zone meeting go from glory to glory. Cannot do last minute preparation.

Saturday was zone outing..really been a long time since we had a zone outing. Went to Sentosa to enjoy ourself along with some of the friends that joined us. The mood was dampen by the heavy rain but when it started to drizzle all of us were back to our fun mood. Enjoy the game very much..thought that the outing was a success could see that everybody was enjoying themself. However stayed there for less than 2 hours and had to leave and change out rush down to expo to serve. This whole week seems like a very rush week, always run out of time.

Reached expo close to 4 and realise I am not doing Praise and Worship but rather Offering and announcements plus all the songs for ministry session. Knowing that I would be the director for Sunday service, I decide during my free period to observe how my friend do. Well I got a shock..and I left service quite pressure cause it was something new and it is much more tougher. When I reached chorus board room I was stun..first time I see so many songs on standby for ministry sessions is even more than Emerge! We have 10 over songs on standby yesterday and most songs are very old and I do not recognise some of the worship songs. However thank God! After ministry session, they were quite happy with me but I left worrying for tomorrow cause had a very bad experience 3 weeks ago while I am the director.

Shared with my cgm during dinner after sat service but no one gave me any comment. Message Pamela told her about it while on my way home. Thank God for her she really encourage me and really help me big time to get over all my jitters. Went to service without much worries. Lift it all up to God and really through the grace of God manage to do well for service except with some mistakes. Thought I goof up but it seems no one saw it probably it did not appear on the LED screen. The TV directors were shock and talking about it over coms but look like I am on the safe side. Shall message my IC and asked how was my performance today! Today got to enjoy the ministry session. Not require to serve! Was very powerful and the presence of God was so thick so tangible. Enjoy the ministry service alot. The move of the Holy Spirit and the miracles/work of God just blow the mind even though this is not the first time I have been in such similar service. But God just never fail to wow me!

After a super long service (which remind me of Emerge where I have to wake up super early and serve the whole day) went for fellowship to chill out with members and Serena's boyfriend Terrence. Today fellowship was simply great. We just had late lunch together at Raffles City before heading down to TCC at Somerset for more chilling out. We just talk and listen to Terrence's jokes which made all of us aching at the side of our stomach. He is like a walking library full of jokes..beginning to enjoy his company more.

Next went down to support Chai Huat and Glenn in their live performance at Heeren. Must say it was great performance. Could see they were kan cheong before that but the excitement that is oozing out of them cannot be deny. Definately happy for them can play in the public for the public. Potential is there for them and to go from glory to glory! Was surprise to see Pamela there as well! Was there to support Pow Wee. From there all of us departed..must blog this to remind of myself my dear PCGL dedicated the last song "Guardian Angel" to his special someone. I can see it coming soon haha. Had a fruitful chat with Shunfu on my way home with him. He just reignite my passion for God. He only came to church and join us for 1 month plus but the passion he has for God wow overwhelm me. Decide that I want to talk to him more share with him more.

Just receive my debrief..was a positive one. Grace of God and of course the help of the team too! My IC also want me to do more and help him out with the team. Overall is a good week!

Labels: chorus board, service, Sunday Fellowship, zone meeting, zone outing

Finally...since 9.30pm have been trying to finish everything that I need to do for later zone meeting. Wanted to custom made a simpsons welcome slide but in the end settle for this and just edit here and there due to lack of time. Is just a sneak preview of what the welcome slide will be for tmrw. Probably the next time I will do a custom made. Was thinking of letting the creative idea flow and move from glory to glory. Have this idea of transforming zone meeting into something like service and emerge like that. If everything work out next year probably will join my cgm or "business partner" do a trailer to countdown to the year end thanksgiving meeting.

Labels: daily stuff

This week it seems that sun hardly shine. Automatically I will be awake at 6 or 7 plus and in the only thing that is audible in my state of grogginess is the clear pattering sound of the rain hitting the ground. How? God if this rain going to continue for the whole week how are we going to make sure the Sentosa outreach will be a success. Well God I have absoulute faith in You..if You are for us, who else can be against us.

Since Monday, I have been devoting most of my time trying to finish the last book of Harry Potter and now I can say I have completed in minutes ago. This is the first time I have completed a 607 pages book that fast. Probably like what I told Pamela earlier, maybe the Potter adrenaline/hype is still there thats why. Must say is a really nice story. Can't wait for the movie 7 to hit the shore. I am pretty sure is going to be something like Lord of the Ring - Return of the King. Full of adventure and actions which was sorely miss in the current movie. Now that I finished book 7 probably will start on Harry Potter book 2 again or attempt my I dunno how many times Lord of the Ring. The other time read half way before decided to give up. Too lengthy and quite boring.

Thought that this week don't need to serve cause quite late still never receive any call from my IC. But alast I was right this week is indeed my team's turn to serve. Well I am excited to receive the call and of course looking forward to this week service. Can't wait to get my hands on the director position again. The last time out I was super down because for Sunday service I did a very lousy job and this time round I want to do a better job. Let this week services be the starting point to do a great job in the area of being a director. Though still not sure what I will be assign to do but no matter I want to excel and if assign to be director again I don't want to screw up anything but produce a good performance by the grace of God.

Argh..kind of fed up..waiting very long for the wallet to get approve and reach my hands. Once again hope nothing will crop up.

Well I guess only shijie know this..always assuring me when I start to let my mind wander to the negative. Well but it end up as a happy Wednesday again.

Labels: daily stuff

Half way there now...less than 300 pages more to completing book 7. Wanted to sleep early before 1am but was so caught up with the story I procrastinate and end up sleeping at 3 plus. Tonight going to complete another 100 pages before I surrender my day.

Went to Annabel's grandma wake today. Today lesser people turn up but was great chatting with her and the rest of the people who were there. After that headed to 85 with Daniel for supper. Just nice when we reach there it was 10.30pm and it was time to tuck in. Was fasting earlier in the day for zone outing on Saturday and for myself as well. Spend some quality time with Dan over supper.

Just found out will be doing chorus board again for Friday zone meeting at riverwalk. Going to be more late nights for me. Cause I want to explore more on my creativity and hopefully produce something new something that is of church service standard. Well when everything is confirm will start working on it.

Also it seems everyone is so pump up for their individual end of year holiday trip..well I am looking forward to mine as well! Must quickly save up and start planning.

Labels: daily stuff

Finally my Harry Potter book 7 arrived this evening. Had to wait because my auntie can get it at staff price and is really so much cheaper than retail price $20 cheaper and staff are only allow to get the book today. Though I am not on the same page as those avid readers out there..even the net are revealing the ending. Well nonetheless this week is going to be a very tiring week for me..going to attack book 7 and hopefully finish it within a week.

This week seems like a very busy week. Tomorrow will be going down to attend Annabel's grandma wake. Was suppose to attend my chorus board member farewell dinner however decide that the wake is more important. Will be rushing down from parkway to Lavender. Friday will be zone meeting at riverwalk. Most likely have to do chorus board for the meeting and that will mean late night sleep preparing everything for the meeting. Friday night will be movie day again catching Simpson the movie after zone meeting. Saturday zone outing at Sentosa and if i'm not wrong should be serving and will need to rush down to serve! Want to learn everything about director before my mentor leave for Hongkong.

It seems like I'm jack of all trades but master of none. 7 months in the ministry, I have learn almost everything and been able to serve in different positions. But I am enjoying myself each time I get to serve cause get to learn something new. Realise that got to increase my capacity and also probably feed my brain with some brain juice cause there is alot to remember and this failing memory bank of mine sigh..can't contain too many informations.

Realise one thing, this year seem to be a not a very good year. In my 5 years in church this year is the year whereby have to attend lots of wake. Got me to think really life is precious. Really we do not know what tomorrow holds for us. Got to live the best out of each day!

Labels: chorus board, Daily, penny for a thought

Saturday and Sunday service was great. Is not just only a great service but went home receiving something and really need to act it out in my life. Is a simple message that touch on Christian Basics.

As usual after service will hang out with cell group. Today was a tiring day. Was trying to catch up on with my sleep. Haha was already in bed about to enter into deep sleep when I receive the reply at 1 plus and it kept me awake and excited on the bed till 2 plus and the next thing I know already morning! This is the 2nd time..this week don't think chatted much. Just Wednesday and the weekends.

A photo taken by Vanessa when we were making our way down to esplanade to slack and chat.

Had early dinner and after that head down to esplanade with the rest of them and started chatting and just talking crap. Before we left the place we were discussing about music and I was reminded of the 2 oldies songs from the movie Transformers. The songs were feature when Sam Witwicky (Shia LeBeouf) wanted to chase/woo Mikaela Banes (Megan Fox). Suddenly Bumblebee jukebox played the first old song and it goes like "Who's gonna drive you home Tonight?" and after that the next song was something like "Baby come back" and that was the scene where Bumblebee was trying to help Sam chase Mikaela.

Spend an hour plus searching the net to see whether can I get any useful informations. Alast, manage to find it and got the 2 songs. Now is on my playlist. I believe is going to continue for the next few days. Time to send it to Wen Kai.

Can't wait for my Gucci wallet to come immediately. Hopefully don't meet with any hiccups.

Labels: Sunday Fellowship

Yesterday was out with Daniel, Chai Huat, San San and Vanessa. Went to shop for Val's birthday present. Quite some time since we meet out on a friday evening to chill. Everywhere in Singapore now seem very expensive. While we were out shopping, the guys attention were diverted. With the limited time we went to look at our guy's stuffs instead. Hey Van if you are reading tell me are you shocked to actually see us going to shop for our stuffs? Anyway quite a few things caught my eyes which I badly want to get in the next few weeks. If I keep on spending money and with arise and build 2 coming up..afraid that I can't save enough to go to Bangkok. Time to curb my spending ways.

After shopping..went home to get the car. Went to catch Harry Potter midnight show with Daniel and Benedict. A struggle to keep awake! Whole show ended close to 4 and the next thing I was doing speeding and sending everybody home so I can go home and rest. Heard that the reviews for the shows were bad. People were also complaining. I must say the show is not so bad but it badly miss the action scenes.

With barely 6 hours of sleep I was up and preparing to gear up and get the Final Harry Potter book for a friend. Traffic was super bad all the way to Marine Parade. Must be everybody flocking to get the book as well and find out who are the 12 character that lost their life. Well can't wait to get my hands on it as well. Can't wait for Monday to arrive and I will start on my journey to finish the whole Harry Potter book.

Family - a group of people who are generally not blood relations but who share common attitudes, interests, or goals and, frequently, live together

Love - affectionate concern for the well-being of others

Well recently been thinking howcome so many people are no longer interested in coming for cg fellowship. People who use to be so excited to come for cg fellowship but as of now they are no longer interested in any activities plan by their cg (family). They would rather be found with their other friends in church. Well I won't say that is a crime not to come for cg fellowship but I am shocked that the "excuses" they are giving.

Sometimes I really wonder how does each individual see/treat one another in the cg. Has cg and service been reduce to just being another religious ritual another religious obligation in this "busy" world we are living and after all this meeting we will no longer be found with the cg for fellowship.

I am appalled that people rather go and enjoy themself with other church friends than to go and visit a member's grandma who is lying in the hospital. Appalled that because of opinion or dislike certain members in the cg and thus that explain their disappearance from fellowship. Ain't we suppose to be an overcomer and prove others wrong about us?

There was this song popularise by Black Eyed Pea "Where Is The Love". Indeed where is the love for one another in the cg. The love that enable us to call one another brother and sister in Christ. The love that could be seen in fellowship. Beside we are called to be a family to love one another the way Jesus loves us.

Are we so caught up with our own comfort zone/life/etc that we can't even squeeze out time for cg fellowship? I don't think anybody is exempted from this issue even if is cgl/pcgl. Is all through fellowship that we get to know each other and is also through fellowship that we strengthen the bonds with one another and ultimately is through fellowship that we get to meet with one another just like where we get to meet our abba father in cg and service.

Well is just something that is bothering me. What can we do? I believe in the power of one! If no one wants to do it, let it be that I will do it and make it come to pass.

Labels: thought

Sunday did not attend service. Went to celebrate my mom's birthday with my family. Decide to attend saturday service than to rush down like in the past after sunday service and by the time i reach there, all of them would be just waiting for me to finish the food and leave the restaurant. However, decide that sometimes need to put family first also did not really practice this until I see it from somebody and decide yes family relationship is important.

Decide to buy the Gucci wallet cause need a new wallet to replace the one i bought at topman. Wanted something smaller than the current one i using. Although is expensive but i think is a steal since my twin brother can get it at half price. Trying my best to save up for the end of year trip to Bangkok..realise that i have been spending alot. Got to try to save up more maybe can travel to 2 places at the end of the year Bangkok and Australia. Must stop spending already must look to the future where i can spend the December in oversea.

Friday had supper with Wen Kai, Chai Huat, Shang and Gordon. After talking with wen kai realise that maybe too kua zhang already. Was thinking should I msg and say drop the idea. So after service met up with Pamela and pass the thing to her. Sigh..left with mixed feelings..must think twice the next time.

Labels: mixed feelings

7 July a day to remember. Was prepare to do praise & worship plus announcements for service however there were other plans. Ever since the last time I did director for a brief moment during one of the prayer meeting at Expo, I was kind of excited and wanted to learn more. One of my team member will be going for the taiwan emerge thus needed to practice for P&W and the director for Saturday will be reporting late so Sihui asked me to learn how to be director and later observe my team member who was suppose to be the director when service start. But in the end I was asked to man the coms and be the director for the day. I remember I came out to meet my member during break time and tell them how anxious I am..scared I will screw up but God is good and my mentor was there to help me and guide me. Sihui the IC in charge was quite satisfy with my performance and of course I was excited because God actually fulfill my desire to one day be a director for service. As such she gave positive feedback to my team IC and on sunday I was taken off from doing sermon and continue to be director for Sunday service as well. Must say I am quite excited with the news.

However on Sunday I must say is bad day for me..sigh...my performance was way way too lousy in the end still gave my IC some trouble because Pst Aries and the service director wanted to see him. My performance was totally and drastically different as compared to Saturday. From the moment service start to the end of the service I made plenty of mistakes and those mistakes still linger in my mind. At one time I feel like telling my IC that maybe he should look for another person to do directing. Well but got over it..I very wish that I can still manned the coms the next time I serve and this time round learn from my mistakes. Told a few of my members and friends about it and also message Pamela who never fail to encourage me.

Yesterday wanted to check my email for a reply which I am holding out for for about a week. Was kinda shocked how come I can't enter my account and was thinking about reply and all those important emails. Realise that someone hack into my acc was quite frustrated when I told my brother who was in the same room as me. I thought maybe my computer is giving me prob so went over to parents room but was the same thing can't log in. Was complaining to my brother about it. Went to change my password and think nothing about it and went to sleep cause past few days did not have enough sleep. When I woke up receive an email and realise that indeed someone hack into it. Was fuming mad cause my privacy was intruded and the contents of my mail between me and my ZS was "expose". Yesterday indeed made my day even worst as compare to sunday.

Well decide to forgive the perosn cause there is nothing I can do and I also don't really want to do much. Whats done have been done no point for me to pursue the matters any further. Just felt that the word need to sink in and be carry out by me..Pst Kong was talking about if someone do wrong to you don't retaliate and I remember the biggest problem all Christians face and that is one verse in the bible pray for your enemy. Well can't say the person is my enemy but I just feel that needed to choose to forgive and along with time forget about this whole matter.

Labels: Bad start..to the week

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