had overnight pm on friday. drove down to jurong west church for the first time. had initial fear driving into church carpark because i feel is very cramp and narrow. so was quite surprise to find it a breeze navigating my way down to the basement carpark. was suppose to serve for session 3 but went down to serve for session 2 and 3. well the tough part was session 1 because for session 2 and 3 i literally had nth much to do. well opm was good i think once in a while is good to go down and just exp God's presence and just get pray up.

side track a bit...sia la Poh actually joke with me. i guess by the time it was the 3rd session he was already very tired. actually ask me to prepare a 80s chinese song i was like huh got this song ah. and he thought really got this song and i knew this song as well.


after opm went down to east coast mac to have breakfast by the time i reach hm and went to slp was abt 9 or 9 plus in the morning. cancel bible study because i was too physically tired and i doubt i can wake up and give bryan also.

after cg, rushed down for service. pst ulf preached a very good msg abt fear. was sitting at charlie terrace..directly under the air-con. was shivering like mad and i was struggling to keep awake also. but the cold temperature help to keep me awake. ok i mus make a note nv to sit there anymore if not i must remember to bring jacket.

after service finally went down to botak jones at bedok there for dinner. i mean we have been talking abt it for quite some time and we nv really carry it out. so that sat went there for dinner. the food well is not bad but the service is fantastic. after dinner drove charmaine home along with van and fabian before i head for home.

sunday aft prayer meeting have a short lunch at east coast there. when we return to val's car i think within 15 mins i was fast asleep. cannot take it. reached home i collapse already. slept all the way. did not hear the calls and msg that came in until morning. dead tired.

found out that my dad receive some stiches above his left eyes. while playing badminton hurt his eyes. now there are more things for me to do. now i am a personal driver to my bro when they have to go in camp.

pst was mentioning that F.I.R are coming to perform this weekend in our church. so i was joking with char on sat want anot help u get their autograph and photo. FIR is a 3 person band if i nv remember wrongly but only 2 of them are coming. so i was saying i go take photo and autograph it because i am their 3rd member. she say ya she know it all along..because i am the one who help them carry their luggage...nth to say haha.

today glenn was asking can i help anot since i am serving this week. ok i try my best no guarantee. i hope can help u get. but if i don't manage to don beat me up ok.

indeed..when i sow i will definately reap. char say when she get her licence and her car she is going to give me a lift home. intially she say till very nice then on the way home say she will drop me at PIE...then like that i rather take direct bus home from expo. but as usual always joke with me..so i hope now she can quickly pass and also someone out there will be good enuff to bless her a car so i can benefit also.

went to catch P.S I Love You with dan, val and van yesterday since we can't really make it on any other days. the movie is nice. when to check up the author of the book i am surprised that she is actually the daughter of the prime minister of ireland. well went on to check the what other books she wrote and stumble onto another of her story that will come up on the big screen this time hugh jackman will be the lead actor.

was reading something from dan's blog abt the movie and true when i went home i watch that part again and harry connick jr made this statement "we are so arragont, so afraid to age and we do everything we can to prevent it. we don realise how privilege to grow old with someone. someone who does not drive you to commit murder or doesn't humiliate you beyond repair."

i am not married nor attached but this statement made me remember what char preach last sat abt us when we reach a certain age this few people in lives will always remain as ur gd friends. i mean probably thats what i want to see. how nice it would be down the road that i am able to say yea i knew him/her when i was this age and we have manage to keep this friendship alive for these many years.

just like after movie yesterday i was at chai huat place i think i over reacted and well we can always from then on call it quits and fall out with one another but that is not what i am looking at. i may not be perfect but if my friends can overlook my flaws yea so can i too. and is always a privilege in life to have that few good friends that will stick by you in life no matter what happen.

was chatting with char a couple of days ago i think. was talking to her abt this particular thing. told myself no matter what i gonna be accountable in everything. at least i thank God so far i have been very accountable to her. and i am glad she also help me out. and i also told her that no matter what happen although it is a long shot but i just wanna try. in a sense like what she say die with no regrets.

well for now..i made a promise to myself and wanna carry it out. probably the next 2-4 years i wanna be very focus on achieving certain things in my life that i wanna cut off a area that i know maybe a weakness.

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was serving for sunday service. pst tan preached a very good msg the sermon was very very long. 67 slides altogether. the previous night i was up till quite late and was super tired when i was serving. as usual went to buy a tube of mentos to try to keep awake.

abt 10 mins before service was abt to start the laptop crash. my ic was outside having breakfast. so my ministry mates asked me what to do. deal with the running announcement first and tried to see what we can do. in the end we failed, call my ic in and we really wow have a tough time like what my ic said "fire fight". 3 mins before svc start we were still fire fighting. 3 sec before svc start we were almost done. wah really is the grace of God that we manage to run the service smoothly. i was telling charmaine the other day that my team is consider young wah but i really love the team effort put in on sunday we just show strength and unity as a team. nv panic is just like we knew that we will still run the service as it is.

i dunno but i just feel that the team on sunday probably grow to another level. makes it more and more exciting to serve with them.

was saying that pst was preaching a very long msg. was doing director on sunday. really had to tell myself to be sharp and focus. cannot lose concentration. because pst skip the points and then return to the point again wah is a real test. because ever since my IC spoke to me abt being consistent and also wanting us to grow and improve so that next time when juslin is doing sermon is not just him that can do the directing but we can also do it. so i purpose in my heart i wanna take this chance to improve and show that yes i can do it also and not buckle under pressure. i think one of the day i must email my IC ask him how have i been doing.

after service went for fellowship with my cg before a few of us went to catch jumper together with charmaine. i was super tired. i actually struggle to keep awake during the whole movie probably only the last 15 mins i manage to keep awake. this is the first time in a long time i actually slept in a movie the other time was a few years back me and my twin bro we went to catch a oscar movie marathon. in the end i slept for the last movie.

before the movie i told char i will sit beside u so when u sleep i will make sure i move my shoulder and hit ur head so u will be awake. then she retort me and say u then better not sleep. haha in the end i was the one that was trying to keep awake. i mus say i caught the movie! is jus that my eyes shut for 5 sec and this ang moh beside me keep on jumping on the chair which will wake me up. so thanks to her i also manage to keep myself awake. the movie i feel is so so even though yesterday i read that it was the number 1 movie in US.

after the movie all of us departed and head for home. guess everybody was tired also. anyway i also had to leave for home if not my head will roll got mini celeb with family. wonder where my mom bought the cake from. is nice. ok must go ask her.

yes! finally got heroes season 2 and a half from pamela yesterday. hmm have some prob watching from my com but no prob watching from my laptop. time to do some catching up. really appreciate pam i mean she can need not lend me but maybe because of my constant bugging thats why she bo bian lend me i dunno haha. thanks to her my weekdays are no longer mundane.

yesterday muster up all my courage and did something which i probably will nv thought of doing. my close friends also don't believe that i will do it also. whatever the reply is..at least i know i can in a sense die with no regret.

spend valentine day at home. did not really want to go out also because that night the guys were going over to chai huat's house to play overnight mahjong. i agree to go over also even though i dunno how to play.

because i called chai huat and he was telling me not to leave house and i called dan he also say don leave first. so i started to suspect something. i thought that the gang planned to sabo me on friday when we meet up for dinner. so i was on the phone telling shang and valerie that i am not going to let them succeed so i say i am leaving hse already and stuffs.

as i thought that it would only be dan and ch saboing me..i decide to play them little would i know that vanessa, valerie, jasmine, ch and dan would sacrifice everything to do these for me. felt quite bad fooling them and spoiling everything. till now i am still being shoot by them sigh..even CHARMAINE join in the fun and shoot me during testimony time in cg today sigh..

i was like playing the role of a fugitive..before i left hse i checked outside from my parents room, check the window from the living room, even before i step out i stand behind my door because i was like hmm will they suddenly jump up on me. well they did not. because i spoil their countless backup plans they were so fed up they left for ch place to do the sabo and i cause val to run back home to take her car and jas to injure her poor toe.

even when i reached ch place i was playing with him telling him that i am not going to come in..i need to leave already. the gang was fuming mad and was saying if he don appear we will jus cancel the birthday plans. ok in the end i went in ch house. was shock to see the girls. ok they were nice to me. they know i don really like to take hot stuffs. they really plan alot for the sabo..

note they took out all the strawberry fillings (well i don't really like strawberry alot but i guess because van is a strawberry lover thats why my sabo also got to do with strawberry since she was the one who bought it) filled it with wasabi and covered it with strawberry fillings again. so thoughtful of them. they asked me to eat as much as possible munch it 5 times and sing a song. wah moment i munched it..my tears were on the verge of rolling out. why i say they were nice because even though i spoil their plans so many times they actually asked me to spit it out, i need not swallow it. but well i am not so kind not to remember these for the 5 of them i will do something special when their birthday is here. haha just kidding.

next they pass me a can of coke which they shook so many times and ask me to drink. they wanted the coke to splash on me. but well i was talking for some time by then when i open and drink thank God it did not splash at me. overall although the sabo failed..one thing that touched me so much is they actually went the extra mile to do it for me so i can have a memorable 21st birthday. my "cake" for that day was ben & jerry ice cream. because last year valentine day a grp of us went to ben & jerry after bs i think and they somehow "con" me to celeb my birthday also if i nv remember wrongly.

heard that van even wanted to deliver breakfast on friday morning before she go down to the driving sch to book her basic theory test. that is sweet of her. but it did not happen but is alright cause i was quite awake i had breakfast with val who taught me a new word call power nap haha.

actually i planned to get the 3 girls flowers a few days before valentine day. so in the afternoon went to get 4 stalks of sunflower. well think that rose would be quite inappropriate so i get my favourite flower instead and drive down to each of their house to pass it to them to thank them and also to apologise. well the last stalk now sitting in my room wanted to give it off at night but did not manage to.

friday all my good friends jas, van, val, chai huat, shang, glenn, (gordon) and dan, gathered at new york new york to celeb my birthday over dinner. heard that something was suppose to happen one but the waitress from new york new york did not carried it out and got van quite angry. heard was suppose to bring out my cake and i not sure how the story suppose to continue because no one tell me the full story yet.

ch did tell me that i only need to pay half for my meal and the rest covered by them but little would i know when we had dinner at 85 today ch told me did u realise that ur wallet have more money. they actually treated me wah very touched. and they secretly put the cash back when i sent charmaine up and collect the songsheet.

after dinner, benedict joined us as we head for home. our next destination was to villa bali to chill out. was msging pamela and telling her nv been to such place before and surprisingly she know the place. felt like a frog in a well.

reached there first before val. they wanted to surprise me with charmaine's appearance. but while i was driving, jas called and said that they need to go picked charmaine up and don't let me know and she was talking so loud. i told them ok i will act surprise when they reach since they painstakingly plan so much for me. when they reached i was like thinking where were jas and van. little would i know they actually bought a cake for me and celebrated for me at villa bali.

ok for me..i usually try to avoid going to pub detest club alot. ok i dunno do u call villa bali a pub anot. because i know i am a poor drinker and also i don't really like to drink since i need to drive. ordered a mocktail called "frangipani". the drink very sour but is nice. i really enjoyed myself the last few days in the company of all my good friends.

thats my zs/cgl/good friend charmaine on the extreme right. she actually changed her driving lesson time in order to come down to celebrate and chill with us. she even suggested villa bali instead of holland v because she say must have a change in venue. must say she is really a blessing, a God given gift to me.

spend a relaxing night at there just talking and drinking. kindda like this kind of night because is when u just need to relax and chill out with ur friends. the place is quite nice bali style. quite comfy also. don't mind going there again but probably the next time i will go down to dempsey road probably 2 fridays later?

originally after the whole thing, was thinking of getting heroes season 2 from pamela. so i made it a point to finish sending by 12.30 so i won't reached her place so late. but she was out even later then me haha. was suppose to collect from one of my friends today but called those whom i think she might know up but none receive it. nvm shall get it from her one of the days this week ba. at least now i get to be on par with the rest of them out there.

before i end this entry..wanna thank these wonderful people who make a difference in my life and being such a blessing to me - charmaine, vanessa, jasmine, valerie, daniel, chai huat, shang, glenn, yongheng, shi jie, weiming and jason. they really took time off to celeb for me and making it a memorable one.

to the people who drop me birthday msg - pamela, sher, hanxian, jiawen, abigal, gordon, kelly, sermin, bryan, yanning, kelvyn, dorothy, josephine, emily, annabel, wen kai, jianrong, imelda and suping.

P.S - sincere apology to van, val, jas, ch and dan for spoiling the sabo.

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met up with my good friends..jason, yongheng, chai huat and wei ming. supposed to be just jason, yh and ch celebrating my birthday kindda like a "private" celebration because the reason they give me was because we met 5 years plus ago in our very first cg and from there we click and are so call the remaining survivors of 5 years plus ago. so was kindda surprise when wei ming turned up..nonetheless i am super thankful to these 4 guys ard me.

i told them so sorry..wanna push our appointment earlier because i wanna spend my 21st with my cgm. they agreed and nv complain much as well. very accomodating. well is kindda memory lane being with them..the different paths that we took. both yh and ch are ppl whom i knew since sec sch days and jason was the one who mentor and help me stay in church.

the dinner did not start well because as usual we were not decisive on where to eat. met at 6.30 - 6.45 and finally decide on fish & co at 8pm. that aside i feel that i really enjoy their company. after fish & co we left for dessert. i was clueless abt everything..all they say was they wanna have dessert and i don't really wanna eat. they suggested swensen but realised it was too ex so we move over to secret recipe. we were seated down when suddenly yh took the menu and went up to the manager and start ordering i was laughing with the rest of the guys because usually is the waiter will come and serve us and not us going to them.

when he returned he said wah all pang seh only i buy..little did i know they actually order a cake to celeb my b'dae. i did not know until i saw the waitress serving us with a candle on the cake. ok i am super shock but i have learn my lesson so on friday i don think i will be so shock haha unless i forget. well i really appreciate them alot..they wanted to go swensen order one big cake for me but well i totally understand well is the thoughts that count.

although something happened earlier but well what the heck..just gonna enjoyed the rest of the week.

is really in church i found all my good friends..well my b'day wasn't really of much significant because in my family we don really make a big hoo ha out of it. when we were young all we had was a cake a birthday song a present thats all at times don't have also but now each year my parents give us red packet.

so to me every year my b'day is jus another b'day. but ever since i come to church well my b'day change alot and i wasn't expecting much for my 21st but my good friends all insist must make it a memorable one when all i wanted was a simple dinner thats all.

well today was my dad's birthday as well. tmrw is valentine day we take a break. on friday me and twin bro b'day and we will just go out and celeb it individually.

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saturday..was out with char, val, van, jas and dan. went to catch sweeney todd. the movie was ok only. i also dunno how to comment abt the movie. after the movie we went to manhattan fish to have our lunch cum dinner.

we hang ard at orchard area for a little while more before we decide to head to holland v to chill out. walk back to cathay to get my car. wah quite pai seh..van and jas i think decide on N.Y.D.C and when we were seated down they decide they don wan to chill at there and wah walk out of the restaurant jus like that. me and dan we were quite pai seh i think the next time we frequent holland v we mus cover our faces and avoid nydc.

in the end we settle at hagen daz. even though the food was expensive but the fellowship with dan, van and jas was priceless. i mus admit i was super clueless. abt 10 plus jas say she need to go get a cake for her ertch who was my ex cgl. she wanted to get hagen daz cake but they don sell one slice so me and her went over to starbuck to get it and that was when i saw pamela. quite surprised to see her there.

so jas was asking dunno wad cake to get..i was telling her my personal preference cheese cake. and she say ok lor cheese cake.

left holland v ard 10.45pm because need to rush down to pick char up who was somewhere ard my place. char also quite funny..she msg me when i was at hagen daz "what time will you be going home", her next msg was "oh was wondering can you give me a lift home", i reply her say "ok can no prob" and her reply was "really ah. blar blar".

was telling the gang that i think i shld send one back that read "no la of course. u really believe i will come down and send u home ah." a reply that will joke with her. but decide not to. first time have to rush from one place to another.

yesterday after service we had our cg reunion steamboat at dan and jas house. halfway had to accompany val take her car and guide her. when we were reaching back i was thinking o no die will they suddenly celeb my b'dae and then ask me do sabo because char don wan to celeb after svc because she wanna sabo me. but nth happen leh. so i jus sat down and finally i was thinking can eat already and totally forgotten abt my birthday.

i was in the dining room and most of them were not ard. when i was abt to call van and val aye come eat leh. the whole grp appear and they celeb my birthday. really appreciate all of them. all my close friends were there to celeb my birthday. although is jus a mini one but i think they planning more on the actual one on friday.

mus make special mention:

1) thanks van for getting the cg b'day gift. no worries i will wear it this weekend when i serve.

2) thanks sher for doing such a wonderful card. i had a good laugh when i saw the design because it was creatively done. and i did not have such a card before. even my bro was asking real one anot got party ah ur b'day which is not true.

3) thanks jas and dan. i really got dupe by u all. actually bought the birthday cake and let me choose also. i think this shld be the most ex cake the cg ever bought i guess.

next day mus go and help jackson out with his valentine gift. dunno where to get transparent box. sigh..mus go ard shop for it. nvm help and be help back.

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went out with ch jus to shop ard and see is there anything we can buy at orchard and city hall. well went home empty handed but it was a great time going out with him. half way glenn and jon cai join us.

while we were making our way out of orchard to city hall, chai huat spot a O2 xda atom 2 PDA phone. we were joking why not sell it and we won't need to struggle for this month building fund. but of course we did not do it. when we reach city hall we called the lady hubby after going through her contact list. give him a call and he said why not asked a cab driver to drive it down to where they stay. anyway felt it was not a safe arrangement. after reunion dinner went to study the directory of singapore.

the guy was staying at upper thomson road and me upper east coast. miles apart from one another. got ch to accompany since i don't like getting lost alone. manage to find the place with ease..but met with some wrong turns. well in the end went home with no rewards but hey is not abt the rewards.

well bible talks about "do unto others what you want others to do unto you". i mean 2 years ago while the zone had a human monopoly outreach and i was one of the game master i lost my bag at the national library. someone stole my whole bag. in it was my tithe and the first pledge for my building fund. a few hundred just like that in one day lost.

well the troubling part was living in fear will someone actually take my ic go loan shark and borrow anot. so ma fan need make police report. and i was so broke i still had to worry abt the fee that i have to pay to SIR for a new IC and to the traffic police for a new driving licence. all in all cause me so much trouble while i was hoping that person will at least return me my wallet and my cards. well i checked my letter box everyday but don't have (exaggerating).

anyway decide that cannot mus deliver it to the person and make sure the phone reach there. whether anot there is a reward it does not matter to me and ch. because one thing is God will not short change the both of us. my rewards will come.

receive a msg on sat night from si hui that she wanna meet me at chorus board area on sunday. was thinking hmm..wad is it abt. did not suspect anything at all. probably 10 mins before svc was abt to start receive a call from my ic and i immediately rush back and they say have some impt announcement to make. and the cake was out and they were actually celebrating my birthday along with sheila, serene and another guy i think his name is alan.

really quite surprise..did not expect. i mean i thought maybe my team will celeb for me on the week of my b'dae since that week i will be serving. receive $40 capitaland voucher which can be use in any shopping centre under the management of capitaland. really wanna thank the ministry for celebrating my b'dae and also my team. really find it a pleasure to serve with them. enjoying myself in this ministry.

well another 10 more days..

dunno what the rest will do. only know that chai huat ask me out go celeb say go restaurant eat haha..but also dunno real anot. anyway still long. o yes cg will celeb for me after service this week. char quite funny last tuesday asked so how what you want for b'dae so direct haha. first time can request for what i one.

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went to holland v with dan, van and ben on friday, just thought of going there to chill and slack. wanted to go wala wala but if ask me i not very keen to drink acoholic drink anyway i pretty can't hold my liquor well also. anyway is a personal conviction for me not to drink. thank God, dan save me by saying i need to drive later cannot drink..so we went to n.y.d.c to chill out till 1.

really had a great time with them..jus fellowship, eat, drink. order ice hazelnut elephancinno something like that. the drink ma chiam like some drink from starbuck or coffee bean. well i am cool with spending money at this places or drive out to this places to chill and spend some quality time with my buddies.

left holland v ard 1am. on the way back almost met with an accident because the taxi driver suddenly swerve into my lane. thank God nothing happen. thank God i don like to drive fast anymore if not even with the E brake i might still damage the car.

kindda enjoy being with my cgm alot. recently will meet them up and it seems like every sat we would go dinner together after cg. of cos we will slack at val's place before the guys come over my place to play ps2 and slack and off we go for dinner. really enjoy their company alot.

having an interesting conversation with val now..aft this shall wrap up and go slp tmrw still need to serve

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