Sunday, August 24, 2008
♥ 1:27 AM
quite a depressing week in camp. a bit home sick. maybe that was due to last week only got to spend time in singapore for less than 24hrs. felt quite miserable in camp.
monday had this BAC test. went for it pass the test before i fall out of the next activity which is SOC to ensure i can do my 16km route march the next day.
because i was afraid that i might have to rt for 16km route march if i fail to attend so postpone going to see the mo. the last time i did my route march i did until 8km and miss the 12km. thought that they would only allow me to walk 12km only but thank God manage to complete my 16km route march. thus i am able to do the 24km route march on 1 sept.
thursday we had OC nite. throughout the week we were practicing for this nite. did something like stomp/strikeforce. the whole OC nite kindda fun because we get to enjoy and sit back and relax. after all the platoon finish performing results came in and we won. sergeant and storeman went up to perform as well. is a night of fun. the night snack provided was fantastic probably the best meal i ever consume in tekong!
another thing that got me quite down was because i was suppose to only book out on sat morning. felt like i was being duped by my company because they sought of "promise" us that we will have a long weekend this week.
as i mention earlier, last week we were out for less than 24hrs and abt 20 plus ppl did not book in. news came in that all excuse, attend c and a group of ppl who went to cmpb on monday to retake their test are to be confine and book out on sat because we miss soc.
abt 5 hours before we book out this group of ppl who went to cmpb were allow to book out on friday. i went to look for my pc to ask how come i am being confine as well. i walk out of the platoon office disappointed and super angry.
this is wad my pc told me. can you pls stay back? i need someone to be a digger for the rt soc on sat. in my heart i was like who wants to stay back one more day beside i am excuse from wearing boots. so i told him i can't wear boots as well and my pc sigh and gave me this sian look and started to look for another reasons to convince me why i need to stay behind.
he went on to tell me that he felt that OC decision to make the grp of ppl stayed back was unfair and beside they ALL PASS their soc and went on to say is OC decision for all the excuse and attend c ppl to stay back.
when he made the last statement i can't rebut because OC is the biggest in my company. but i was super angry because he lied to me. monday was the first rundown for soc and the grp of ppl who went to cmpb did not even attend it so how does he determine that all of them pass. secondly if he say is OC made the decision for them to stay back and he felt it was unfair for them to stay back how come he can overwrite his decision and yet can't overwrite for me?
my whole platoon felt very unfair for me because i literally confine for no reason. i can't participate jus wake up next morning at 5.30 to sit down there and wait to book out. my friend micah who was attend c on sunday during lunch time apologise to me because somehow due to the high attend c rate to cover up the whole thing i got confine for no reason.
every night i prayed that God will change the whole situation ever since news came out on tuesday abt the confinement. i really thank God for very good platoon mates, platoon sergeant and sergeant.
my friends decide to help me talk to my platoon sergeant who to me is the best sergeant in my company. after the whole talk he went down to talk to my pc. my pc still refuse to change his mind. aft dinner, while i retire to bunk and seeing all of them happily waiting to book out i was quite sian lying on bed.
did not know that some of my friends who were confine, platoon sergeant and sergeant were downstair still fighting for me to book out together with them. abt 15 mins before we were require to go down and fall in, my sergeant call my friend to ask me to change and prepare for book out.
God really turned the whole situation for me. i feel so bless! i really have fantastic outstanding friends and sergeants. despite them having to stay back they still help me fight for my case. really without their help i would only be able to book out on sat morning.
another 17 days and i will finally POP and leave tekong. thank God my company is the 4th company to book out on that day. will leave tekong at abt 6 plus 7pm.
attended svc today at the same time support shang for his sot grad. saw pam today as well along with the others like yh, sj, weiming seems like quite long since i saw them. saw this guy from platoon 1 in my company not sure is he a church member anot or is he here to support his friend for sot grad. after knowing another guy from platoon 1 talking abt him i got a very good impression of him. maybe he is the one from my zone. not too sure abt it.
after svc went over to alvin's place to attend his early birthday party. hang ard till 11.20 before leaving the place to head for home. actually had plans to go watch death race with ch but because there is still a ban on the merc can't really use the car. but manage to test drive it for the first time jus now. the car has a good feel but i hate the car haha. not quite user friendly since is mostly computerise and the gear is place at the side, not your usual gear.
tmrw will be going to jog and swim with yh, ch and weiming at 11.30. thought of going to catch money no enough 2 at expo but decide against it. so probably will be spending time with shang for lunch before meeting up with glenn and van to hang out. more or less thats my plan for tmrw.
probably if i have the time i wanna go shop for new stuffs. realise that i need new belt, jeans and shirt since i shed quite alot of weight in army.
rest up before booking in on monday noon. really enjoy this long weekend i have.
will officially move over to sat svc on the first week of sept. hopefully aft my ns cg will go back to friday and not on the weekend.
i think this post from jianrong is very good so i am gonna paste it down here...
"I was just logging in to blog about another mundane day of my mundane life in this mundane blog when something interesting jumped out of the main page of wordpress. I was startled because I had given full credibility to this issue and to be decieved by it is definitely saddening.
I am talking about Mike Guglielmucci’s testimony of suffering from a terminal stage cancer for 2 years. If you do not know who is he, just go youtube and type ‘healer’. Yes, he’s the composer of this hit song in the christian worship community and has gained multiple folds of fame and probably fortune through this song as Hillsong recorded it on their latest album, and THAT is a huge platform for anybody to be big, considering Hillsong is like the Timbaland or Rihanna of the secular music scene.
So what’s the deal about? The deal is that he released a statement saying that his claims about being terminally sick with cancer is untrue for the past 2 years. So that means all the videos of him on youtube wearing all those horribly painful looking nose tubes and oxygen masks is all just a facade.
So apparently there’s alot of different responses to this issue, I’m not going to elaborate or give my thought onto this because frankly I have no definite view on this issue but you can read the views of many people just go using Google. It’s a pity that such thing is to happen but all we can do is to pray and pray.
But what I feel about this is that the credibility of integrity of the church is definitely damaged. and it probably takes time for the people to get over this and move on. For me I feel that I have been duped, as I have used the song a few times for my own healing.
However, what I believe that is still credible after all this hoo ha is that the authenticity of the message he preached and the power of the song still rings true. Someone once said that the true authenticity of worship is not found in the name of the composer or writer but is found in the heart of the singer. So regardless of whether the song is written with decietful purposes to gain personal gain and fame, I believe that nevertheless the lyrics of the song still has genuine value to bless people.
I don’t really blame him for doing this because being a ‘celebrity’ in the christian world, these ‘celebrities’ are constantly under the scrutinisation of their detractors, waiting for them to fall and make mistakes and blow everything out to the public to laugh and derail them. But how would you feel if you, a normal person, having to live a life where everything you do, including your poo poo sessions where you moan and groan is under the watchful eyes of skeptical people? How would you feel if all the secret sins that you do in your life while portraying a holy life in front of your friends get exposed in the Straits Times main page for the whole of Singapore to see? It could be anything ranging from pornography to God knows what you do at home! LOL.
Doesn’t that feel awful? These ‘celebrities’ are also human, and as such, they will fall. But the righteous will fall 7 times and pick themselves up 7 times too. So all I can say is to pray pray and pray for him to have genuine repentance and remorse. Which makes me wonder about my own church. Whether does my church contain some secret sins too?
Like embezzling of the tithes and offerings of the people to build golden taps in their own homes etc? You can’t blame me for bringing this piece of sad sin closer to home but it has definitely made me realise that even the holiest person on this planet Earth can too fall to sin. But the beauty of man’s sin is the redemptive power of Christ that he have graciously given to us!
I mean, God could just pick MIke by his shirt collar and throw him into the pits of hell for doing this sin, but he did not. Because if he did, he needs more than just 2 fingers to pick every single person in this earth and throw them into hell. God is a good God, that’s what I believe. I’ll probably have the VIP lava suite if God is to do that LOL."
