Tuesday, August 14, 2007
♥ 1:37 PM
Thought through somethings. Trying to be tactful down here cause I don't wish to be the one that help him announce this matter. Meeting him on Saturday after service and really chatting with him brought memories back. Yes I know this thing will bound to happen and after service last saturday he came over to inform me that it might happen today. We know each other for 7 years..been in church for over 5 years together. We shared almost the same dream just that I am not musically incline like him. Other than that don't really see much difference in the both of us. I still remember it all started when we were the pioneers of E345 and back then Grace the PCGL spoke to us about wanting us to do more and rise us up because we were helping out our cgl Shaun in E305. When she left, both of us just wanted to do our part for the cg. Do and do, we develop passion for the cg and for the people who were with us. Just last year, Charmaine sat him and myself down informing us that she want us to rise up and be cgl by the end of the year. Everything seems like it was yesterday with all the spare time thinking about it. Together we went through alot, youngster that are passion for the Lord giving everything to the cg that we are serving. Well with open arms I welcome back the person that I enjoy working with the most. Is back to the old days again.
God would rather have a imperfect you than not to have you at all. Was reminded about this while I was thinking through some things. How true it is. If we can also put it to use in our friendship wouldn't that be great? Of course I have friendship that are still left hanging in the air. Thought of maybe trying to go about saying a simple "hi". Well what I want to say is this..so many times we let loose our mouth instead of thinking it through. I don't know how people think but to me when we are in one cg we are called to be a family regardless of background or anything.
Was talking to Shi Jie yesterday and I asked him this, if I were to do something wrong will you forgive me. He said yes. If he can treat me as friend and forgive me, wouldn't it be the same for others as well. Probably thats why this year we are reminded constantly that the cross is made up of 2 beams which signify loving God whole heartedly and loving people Fervently. No matter how imperfect we are, God still wants us..because we are not created accidentally. Similarly friends do not just come into our life by accident or the people in your individual cg are not there by accident. Beside God and His word, I believe they stay because of the people in the cg where they feel comfortable with and where they know they will feel love and able to build relationship with one another.
However in recent times, realise that people kick up a huge fuss when member (friends) do something wrong. With time start to distant themself from the those who did something wrong. Had this wrong mindset as well till now. It made me realise one thing that was always on my mind. When Jesus come back a second time, will our hands be clean or will our hands be stain with the blood of our friends? We are suppose to love our neighbor as ourself to pray for our enemies, NOT TO CHASE THEM AWAY or MAKE THEM FEEL UNLOVE. Imagine if we were in their shoes would we want our friends our cgm to forgive us or for them to alienate themself from us.
We are so quick to point our finger and let our tongue wag. Made me remember one thing Charmaine spoke to me about, "do you think by talking harshly and loudly will get the message across?" I remember I told her this, "No Charmaine." From than on I mellow down and no longer find a need to resume my old self and start scolding people for their mistake in a harsh manner. . but to show love even though correcting them in their mistakes.
Was out with Shang before cg started and yesterday was on the phone with him as well. Sang this new worship song where there is this verse God of my youth I remember. So true 5 years ago till now, God is the same yesterday, today and forever. It somehow brought out those memories and kickstart something in me. Digging out and doing stuffs that bring joy, bring me closer to God etc. Decided with him that we will have a prayer meeting before cg start. Had this "rule" back when me and Yongheng were together serving the cg..that we come everyweek before cg to pray to seek God. Decided to re-read the bible again. Falling in love with God all over again. Head over heel for Him. To pass on this contagious love to the whole cg. Was reminded of this verse "If you are willing and obedient, You shall eat the good of the land.."
Just receive news, so looking forward to serve this week in Chorus Board. Every time I serve there is something to learn.Labels: thoughts