Wednesday, July 11, 2007
♥ 1:36 PM
7 July a day to remember. Was prepare to do praise & worship plus announcements for service however there were other plans. Ever since the last time I did director for a brief moment during one of the prayer meeting at Expo, I was kind of excited and wanted to learn more. One of my team member will be going for the taiwan emerge thus needed to practice for P&W and the director for Saturday will be reporting late so Sihui asked me to learn how to be director and later observe my team member who was suppose to be the director when service start. But in the end I was asked to man the coms and be the director for the day. I remember I came out to meet my member during break time and tell them how anxious I am..scared I will screw up but God is good and my mentor was there to help me and guide me. Sihui the IC in charge was quite satisfy with my performance and of course I was excited because God actually fulfill my desire to one day be a director for service. As such she gave positive feedback to my team IC and on sunday I was taken off from doing sermon and continue to be director for Sunday service as well. Must say I am quite excited with the news.
However on Sunday I must say is bad day for me..sigh...my performance was way way too lousy in the end still gave my IC some trouble because Pst Aries and the service director wanted to see him. My performance was totally and drastically different as compared to Saturday. From the moment service start to the end of the service I made plenty of mistakes and those mistakes still linger in my mind. At one time I feel like telling my IC that maybe he should look for another person to do directing. Well but got over it..I very wish that I can still manned the coms the next time I serve and this time round learn from my mistakes. Told a few of my members and friends about it and also message Pamela who never fail to encourage me.
Yesterday wanted to check my email for a reply which I am holding out for for about a week. Was kinda shocked how come I can't enter my account and was thinking about reply and all those important emails. Realise that someone hack into my acc was quite frustrated when I told my brother who was in the same room as me. I thought maybe my computer is giving me prob so went over to parents room but was the same thing can't log in. Was complaining to my brother about it. Went to change my password and think nothing about it and went to sleep cause past few days did not have enough sleep. When I woke up receive an email and realise that indeed someone hack into it. Was fuming mad cause my privacy was intruded and the contents of my mail between me and my ZS was "expose". Yesterday indeed made my day even worst as compare to sunday.
Well decide to forgive the perosn cause there is nothing I can do and I also don't really want to do much. Whats done have been done no point for me to pursue the matters any further. Just felt that the word need to sink in and be carry out by me..Pst Kong was talking about if someone do wrong to you don't retaliate and I remember the biggest problem all Christians face and that is one verse in the bible pray for your enemy. Well can't say the person is my enemy but I just feel that needed to choose to forgive and along with time forget about this whole matter.
Labels: Bad start..to the week
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